When I met you two summers ago there was an instantaneous connection. It was like we were the exact same person (cliché but true). That summer quickly passed and freshman year came. While we were still close, there was a strain from something but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. You told me you were afraid I would change but at that point in time the thought was ludicrous. Throughout that year, we had arguments here and there but nothing lasted very long. When it was time to move in together for our sophomore year… things hit the fan. The tension in that apartment was so thick you could have cut it with a knife.
I’m sure you’re afraid I’m just here to criticize and degrade you but I’m not. While many of the things you did to me would place you in a category completely opposite of a “friend”, I’m past that stage. I’m here to tell you I’m sorry and I wish we could go back.
I’m sorry for the hateful things I said in response to you. I’m sorry for how we spent that following semester acting like the other didn’t exist. I’m sorry for being stubborn about certain things. Most importantly, I’m sorry it took this long for me to be able to say this.
Two years might have been a short time knowing you, but the amount of memories made are too many to count. I wish we could go back to those nights of laying on our twin XL beds stuffing our faces with pizza, Oreo's, popcorn, and any other junk food we could get our hands on while giggling uncontrollably over silly vines. I wish we could go back to getting ready on a Friday night listening to music and dancing like fools. I wish we could go back to having random shopping trips just to get our minds off school. I wish we could go back to our weekly vent sessions just for the other to tell you everything will be okay, stop worrying.
But we can’t.
As sad as it may be, we are no longer anything but acquaintances with a past. I no longer know how your family is doing, if you’re still pursuing the same career path, what guys you’re interested in, or how your life is going. I don't know if those vines still make you laugh until you cry, if you still enjoy watching Teen Wolf on Monday nights, or if you still have that Star Wars cup I bought you for Christmas that made you scream when you saw it. The same goes for you. We’ve both changed so much since we first met, and that’s just what happens sometimes in life. So I want to say I hope you have found someone else to create new memories and adventures with and I wish you all the best.
