I am not going to pretend it was the best feeling in the world. I am not going to try and think about the night you called it quits as a good night because it wasn't. It hurt like hell but the next morning I woke up and I knew it would be okay. I knew that my heart would heal and most importantly I knew that eventually you and I will be friends again. It hurts really bad right now to not have my best friend by my side for the exciting things that happen. I miss our conversations but in time those will return.

Since that night I tried to think about what went wrong and tried to find reasons. I thought of all the things I could've done or should've done to fix us. I thought in circles over and over again. Then I finally realized that nothing went wrong. We just weren't meant for each other right now. Lord knows it wasn't for lack of trying. I don't know what time will tell but maybe eventually we will find our way back to each other. Then again maybe we won't and that would be okay too. There is a couple things I wanted to say though.

Thank you for thinking enough of me to want to end things in person. You have no idea how much that actually meant to me. It means I got to see both of our emotions play out. Just being able to give you that hug before I left really did mean a lot to me. You showed me so much respect and I commend you for that. You know, not every guy has the courage to do that.

I know I said that we can't be friends right now. Listen when I say this, we will be friends again. That isn't a question in my mind. You were my best friend and confidante but for now I have to heal and talking to you like I normal would just make it harder on me. We will eventually be able to have those conversations again. I couldn't say thank you enough for always being there to support me. You really were the definition of a true friend. I will always be a person you can turn to. If you ever need someone to talk to I am always here to help.

Thank you for all the memories you gave me. I have had so much fun with you and that's really all I can ever ask out of a person. Thank you for keeping me smiling and laughing. Thank you for showing me your carefree side and allowing me to see your heart. I've had so much fun with you and these memories are the ones will stay with me forever.

I just wanted to say one more thing. Take care of yourself. I still worry so much about you and that's not just going to go away either. You're someone I care a lot about so don't do stupid stuff. I hope really good things happen for you. I genuinely hope you find someone that makes you extremely happy. I hope that life looks up for you and I can't wait for the day that we can catch up with each other.