Dear old best friend,
You probably won't ever read this, because our friendship has come and gone, and you have removed me from all your social media accounts to make sure I don't come back. Despite this though, I know what I need to say and what I want to say, and I hope i'm able to get it all down.
Together, you and I had some of the times and made some of the best memories of my life. You were my best friend, and my go to. Anything I needed, you were always to make sure I had it. A ride home from school, or a snack for study hall. You were always there to pick up the pieces and help put me back together when I had fallen apart. You were the guy friend my parents loved and trusted. I wouldn't have traded our friendship for anything, not even a boyfriend, and I guess that's where we were different.
After you met her, things started to change. You quickly started to pull away from me and even the rest of our friend group as well. I think it had the biggest effect on me though, because I always expected us to be friends no matter what. I had helped you out with girls before, wording text messages with you and comforting you if it didn't work. In the end it simply came down to you choosing her over me, and I think you broke my heart more than any boyfriend of mine ever has.
I know you deserve to be happy, and that's why I tried to support you. I tried to like her, and I tried not to be jealous you were now spending all your time with her. But eventually, you didn't want my support anymore, which is why I let you go. I stopped fighting for you to stay; I stopped trying to work it out and settle the differences. I stopped pretending to like her, because, well, she took my friend away. There are some days now when I wish I hadn't let you off so easily. I wish I would've tried to talk to you more and explain how I was feeling and how the rest of our friend group was feeling. Maybe I just liked you being single, because I knew your time would always be devoted to me. I know that makes me sound so selfish, but it's the truth. It was hard losing you, and I wish you would've stayed. Relationships should never dictate a friendship, especially not one as long as ours.
Almost a year has passed since we started to drift apart, and I have come to terms with the reality of the situation, but that doesn't mean I don't wish things were different. I think about you a lot, and I still wish you would've stuck around, and figured out how to make time for me and for her. I hope you know that i'll always be rooting for you from the sidelines.
Love,
Your old friend
