An Open Letter To That One "Almost-Relationship"

Dear you,

I don't even know where to start. We started our friendship in late 2015. We started off as friends and never became anything more. You never met any of my friends and I never met any of yours. I never got to meet your family and you never met mine. We didn't break up over annoying quirks or screaming at the top of our lungs. Instead, we were caught in what we call an "almost relationship."

At first, our friendship was awkward. Like super awkward. I thought maybe it was our age difference that set us apart, but it was something more. I then thought that me still being in high school was the problem, but it wasn't that. The problem was that we were just not meant for each other. But despite all of that, I still fell for you.

I loved the attention you gave me. The things you've done for me and the places that you've taken me. I liked that our attitudes were the same. I liked how you like to sing at the top of your lungs when you're driving down the highway. But most all, I liked the time that we spent together.

But, here is the problem. You never wanted anything more. You never wanted anything than more than a 1 am hello and a 6 am goodbye. You never wanted to know about my life goals, but instead, what I was wearing for the night. You were more interested in knowing what I've "done," instead of where I've been. You never saw me as anything else. You never pictured me as your girlfriend or someone you saw a future with.

This "friendship" that we have is so confusing because I don't know what to feel for you. Should I just fall because of everything you've done for me and for the memories you gave me? Should I just move on because I know deep down that we will never be anything more? So thanks, for such a confusing time. Also thank you, for our "almost relationship."

Sincerely, Brianna