Dear You,
I guess knowing each other for years just was not enough for you to not betray me. Growing up with me, knowing my story, and being close with me simply was not enough for you. However, I am not mad at you anymore. As we begin this new year and this new chapter I just wanted to say that neither of us knew what love was, and now, I know not to trust certain things people say to me because of it. What still gets me all this time is the effort you put into trying to be with me, and then how easily you turned your back on me for another person. It is all good though because now I can truly say I forgive you.
The hardest part of forgiveness, to me, is having to forgive someone knowing that they never told you sorry because they never cared enough to. I learned, however, to accept apologies from people who are not going to say them because of their pride. Yes, it makes forgiving the person even more difficult, but then I remember that Christ forgives me for things that I do not apologize for, and I should do the same to others. As the new year started I made a decision to forgive you and put everything you did behind me. I even decided to allow you back to my life without any type of terms. It was simply a new year, new everything in my eyes, and though it was hard for me to do that, I had to remember all the things Christ does for me even when I do not deserve it. Though I am okay with you being in my life again, please be warned that I will not allow you to hurt me the way you did the first time, and this is the last do-over between us.
I have given you many chances to be in my life before, and even though you kept messing up, I still was nice enough to allow you back in, but this time is different. Be warned that if you mess up this time it will be the last time that we ever speak. As you can clearly see I had no problem not talking to you before, and honestly I probably would not have talked to you if people were not pleading with me too, and because of God. Please do not take my kindness for a weakness, and I am determined to leave this friendship in your hands. I will meet you halfway but I definitely will not be carrying it. I will be working around what you do, so act wisely.
I want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart, but I will never be a fool for you again. I have forgiven to many unsaid apologies, and I need to be clear that this will be the last time. I do, however, sincerely hope that our friendship works out this time and that things can go back to the way it was a long time ago. I also continue to pray that God continues to bless you and move in your life. So here is to new beginnings between us, and hopefully happy endings.
Love always,
The Person Who Forgave You
