As we all know, there are some times in our lives when we mess up, when we just don’t do the right things, when we send a stupid text a little too late in the night, or when we don’t say something when we really should’ve. I am completely guilty of this. I have a tendency, like any human being, to live my life selfishly. I don’t seek out these selfish aspects, and I especially don’t wake up and go, “Oh hey, let’s purposely be selfish and ruin a friendship today!” I genuinely believe that a large portion of the mistakes I make, relationships I’ve ruined, and experiences I’ve messed up are solely because I’m selfish and my selfishness leads me to make honest to goodness mistakes that hurt other people. So to those people who I’ve almost always unintentionally hurt, here is the apology you deserve.
When I look back at friendships or relationships, I don’t sit around and think wow, I’m glad that person is out of my life. As I look back on the friendships from high school that dissipated and the relationships in college that just didn’t work out, it genuinely makes me sad that there are people out there that don’t think the highest of me. It makes me sad that I could’ve possibly done something to hurt someone so much that they don’t hold me in their highest regard. So to those of you who don’t hold me at their highest regard, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that there was a time in my life when I selfishly took my feelings and made them more important than the bigger picture, being that friendship or relationship. I wish there was something at this point that I could say to make these situations different, I wish there was something besides writing an article to show you how sorry I am. But, I think the only thing we all can do when we mess up a relationship or friendship is to just let it go, and instead of trying to prove a point or look for words that can compensate for the mistakes we have made, we should show how sorry we are with our actions.
As cliché as it sounds, actions speak way louder than words. I have tried so hard for years to compensate my actions with words and it never works. When someone hurts you, why in the world would you want to listen to them when they tell you why they’re sorry? You should be shown how sorry they are. If someone truly feels remorse, it goes beyond just saying a few words and trying to get it over with. It goes without saying, but if you’re apologetic for your actions, than you’ll find a way to show it. To the person you were mean to, you’ll be nicer. Even if it is not to that specific person, being nicer to a larger audience will do wonders for your karma, leaving you susceptible for greater opportunities to come your way. As they say, what goes around comes around.
I could go on and on and give the apologies to everyone that I’ve wronged who deserves an apology, but my article is all words I can offer. And like I’ve mentioned before, my words can only be as loud as the representation of my actions. So to those of you out there that are looking for some form or redemption from your wrong doings, let it go, but learn from it. Don’t be mean to the next person that walks past you, right the wrongs you’ve done and be the better person in as many situations as you can. To those people out there that deserve an apology from me, I’m not looking to say sorry to you until you forgive me, but if this article is any indication, I promise you that day by day and with the decisions I’m making… I’m trying.
