To The Friends Who Left Me, I'll Be Leaving You And The Drama Behind After Graduation

To The Friends Who Left Me, I'll Be Leaving You And The Drama Behind After Graduation

Friend breakups are way harder than relationship breakups.

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Dear Ex-Friends

Sometimes I find myself missing you all when I'm home alone on a Friday night with nothing to do, or when I see something that reminds me of the holidays, birthdays, and jokes we shared. My favorite memories are when I'd come over late at night until curfew and we'd laugh together for hours, playing stupid games and even having "fight night" every Monday.

I guess it's best that we just coexist now though because I now realize it's not normal to come home from being with your friends to cry into your pillow. I still find it hard to understand why none of you wanted to see me happy, and I don't understand the reason for all of the jealousy and resentment.

That's not to say that I wasn't wrong sometimes though, friendships shouldn't end over other relationships. Sometimes I feel like it's my fault, but you can only do so much to make people happy that hate to see you happy.

Things started changing and you all knew why you all knew what you were doing. I couldn't help what was happening, then I finally got up the courage to walk the other way. It was harder for me than it was for you guys, you said a million times that you wouldn't care and you didn't. I didn't get a birthday wish this year and when I was happy about something, I was only resented further.

So here we are.

We see each other every day and it's like I never helped you when you were sad at 3 A.M, and my efforts to rekindle are harshly pushed away. We have each other's secrets and memories, but nothing else. I care. I always have, despite the lies you've spread and created yourselves.

High school is almost over; we're in the homestretch now and all I want is normality. I've tried long enough to make things like they were. I saw that my face was simply glued and pasted over. In high school, word can travel fast.

I'm just done trying to confront it. You were my best friends; the people I defended, the people I spent my favorite moments with, the people I treasured more than anything and never meant to hurt. The apologies have never been enough, and I know what would be, but I refuse to give up my happiness for people who ultimately want to see me at my lowest.

The tough thing is that I want happiness for every single one of you, even when most of you don't want the same for me.

I'm happy that you're going to a Big 10 school like you've always dreamed of, and I'm not there anymore to take you for ice cream and talk about that but that's okay. I hope someone is doing a good job of taking my place as your best friend.

Even though you despise me the most, I'm happy that you're going to college after you always said that you weren't smart enough. I'm sorry again for everything, as many times as I've said it.

I'm happy that you two are working things out, I know that relationships can be complicated and people make mistakes. Also, you're not my mom's favorite anymore.

Seeing you and giving you a hug last week felt refreshing, you've always been a big brother and role model to me. I miss you and I respect you the most, thank you for defending me when I wasn't there.

I'm happy that I'll see you around campus next year because you're the one that will talk to me occasionally still and doesn't take part in the drama. Even though you hated me for a while too, thank you.

Sincerely, an ex-friend finding closure.

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How Happiness In A Relationship Is So Important

What is the happiness and love that we as individuals deserve when it comes to our relationship?

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It's different for each of us. Some prefer being showered in gifts, being showed off on social media, bragged about to family and friends. But, what is the one thing that all of those have in common?

That would be the unmistakable amount of love your significant other has for you, that they will do anything to show you that they love you unconditionally. We all show our love for one another in various ways. I for one love being shown the love someone else has for me in small things they do.

It could be a simple 'good morning love' text message or even just a hug out of the blue. Knowing that someone cares so deeply about you is one of life's greatest gifts. Knowing that another human being loves you and wants to be with you, it makes us drunk off of love and our heads float up to the stars.

However, when we don't feel that love, that connection, that reassurance from our significant other that they love and care for us back, it can be an extremely overwhelming and a lonely feeling.

We start looking for those feelings and connections elsewhere. In our friends for reassurance if we look good or blowing up their phones for attention.

We start caring about if other people find us attractive or not, we relish in compliments that other people give us. We start looking for that happiness elsewhere. It's not because you stop loving your significant other or stop caring about them, but we as humans need to feel important and like we are needed by another person.

When you stop letting your significant other know how much you care about them or showcasing your love for them, even if it's a simple gesture like holding their hand or holding the door open for them, they will begin to look elsewhere.

Now I am in no way saying that they will cheat on you, but your relationship and their attitude and feelings towards you will never be the same until you start showing them how much they mean to you just as much as they do for you. I don't condone cheaters or staying in a relationship that you are not happy in.

Yes, some relationships go through hard times like distance or a traumatic event. However, the way I see it is if you entered into the relationship, to begin with, you obviously cared about that person a lot and if they show you that they care and love you for the person you are and your past then they deserve the same in return from you.

Relationships are not always easy, they take time, determination, communication, compromise, and love to stay afloat. If one of you isn't willing to give your all and put forth the effort needed then it will never work. A relationship can't be successful if it is only one-sided.

Despite peoples life's being busy on a day to day basis, you need to always find time for your significant other. Because at the end of the day when things hit the fan, your significant other should be the one that will be there no matter what and always be by your side.

All in all, you need to treat each other the way in which you would want to be treated in a relationship and treat them the way they should be treated despite whatever chaos is going on in the world about you. Love is the conquer of all and should never be thrown around or not taken seriously.

Loving someone else is a gift we are given by God and never taken lightly.

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Behind The Lyrics: 'Enjoy Your Life' By MARINA

As simple as it may seem to "enjoy your life", many need remindeers every now and then. The song "Enjoy Your Life" by MARINA serves as a reminder to listeners to fully embrace your life and enjoy the ups and downs of life.

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In the song "Enjoy Your Life" by MARINA, there are many uplifting themes reflected. For many, the song serves as a reminder to enjoy the simple things in life. Music can be very therapeutic and is something many people use to cope throughout their day-to-day. In the son "Enjoy Your Life", MARINA tackles the issues of pressure and stress we feel every day and encourages the listener to put aside their worries and enjoy their life. The song has become an anthem for happiness and gratefulness. In life, there will always be ups and downs, life will always be a balance between the two. The song promotes to the listener to accept this balance and embrace it. The song encourages a positive outlook on life and can be very beneficial for listeners who are having a hard time feeling positive. In this article, I will break down the lyrics and their meaning.

1. Verse 1

"I, I know
You've been feeling stuck, feeling low
You can't see
How good this life can be"


The opening verse addresses the listener and opens up a conversation about how your mindset can affect you. Many times it's common we get stuck in a bad mindset, whether we are always worrying or complaining about our day to day or things that stress us out.

2. Pre-Chorus

"Looking to the future like it's gonna make you happy
Save you from reality, yeah, yeah
Imagining the worst like it's gonna end so badly, yeah, yeah"

Many times it's common we worry about the future. Whether its upcoming deadlines or events coming up, we always find something to worry about. Sometimes this obsessive behavior can become toxic. Sometimes this worry can become anxiety of the future and can lead one to imagine the worst.

3. Chorus

"Sit back and enjoy your problems (Uh)
You don't always have to solve them (Yeah)
'Cause your worst days, they are over
So enjoy your life
Yeah, you might as well accept it (Uh)
Don't you waste your time regretting (Yeah)
'Cause your worst days, they are over
So enjoy your life"






The chorus begins by encouraging the listener to enjoy your problems, which sounds strange to hear. Usually, when faced with problems we don't ever really enjoy it, instead, we may feel down or complain. This phrase as mentioned in an interview with MARINA serves as a reminder to be happy and enjoy your life and everything that comes with it. The chorus encourages the listener to enjoy life and not stress over your problems because you may end wishing you didn't always spend so much time worrying or trying to fix your problems in life. Simply put, the chorus's message is to enjoy your life.

4. Verse 2

"Sun comes up
Your eyes they see clear
Take one breath
Your worries start to disappear"


In the second verse, MARINA uses the sunrise as a symbol for new hope each day, and how each day is a new start. This symbol is reflective to the lyrics "The sun will rise, and we will try again", from the song "Truce" by Twenty One Pilots; who similarly use the sunrise as a new hope and a new beginning to keep trying.

5. Bridge

"When we're down low
Everybody's moving 'round in slo-mo
Never think we'll get out of this black hole
But you're not living in this world alone, alone"


When you feel sad or depressed, it's not uncommon to feel alone or feel like no one else is going through what you are going through. For those with depression, it can feel like you are stuck feeling depressed and it can feel like no one else around you would ever understand the feeling. In this part of the song, MARINA reaches out to the listener to encourage them that you're not alone in your struggle.

6. Outro

"So enjoy your life (Uh, ooh-ooh)
So enjoy your life (Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
So enjoy your life"

The song wraps up the message and reminds the listener once more to enjoy your life.

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