I know you're afraid and you have every reason to be. You have watched relationships fail time and time again. I know you’ve experienced heartbreak along with tears only your pillow could wipe away. I know there are people who have hurt you, taken advantage of you and made you believe that they wouldn’t leave you, just to leave and make you feel like a hopeless fool. So in turn you’ve built walls and with each disappointment, the walls grew taller and taller. In time you’ve learned that you can only truly trust yourself and the voices within your own head. You learned to love yourself in ways other people couldn’t because after all the failed attempts at love, people left you feeling worthless. You might have given up on dating because you're tired of the constant heartbreak, but I hope that you can see that it will eventually work out for you unless you're too afraid to try. You see yourself letting people close but not close enough, you talk but you aren’t saying much.
Eventually you will see the walls you built to protect yourself are only hurting you by keeping you isolated and alone. Sometimes you may find yourself envying the people in relationships and you hope one day you’ll find it yourself, but within that hope is fear. There’s fear you’ll let someone in again and they’ll hurt you and re-break the heart you finally put together again. Maybe you're actually running from the one thing you need. The one thing that will finally heal that broken heart. Without realizing it you may be ruining something before it even starts.
With being afraid to let anyone in, you find comfort and self-worth within yourself, but people aren’t supposed to live their lives alone with fear of getting hurt. We’re supposed to have someone else with us along for the ride and only be a little afraid when we do. So with all that being said I say this:
Be braver than you’ve been and let people in. Find comfort in your friends because they have your best interest at heart. It takes courage to stand alone, but it takes even more to admit that you don’t want to be alone anymore. I know there are days you’ve stared at your own reflection in the mirror trying to convince yourself you're okay, and you may have fooled others but deep down you haven’t fooled yourself. You know yourself and you know you’re not okay. You know deep down, behind those great walls you’ve built up, you secretly wish someone would care enough to break them down and they would if you let them.
Don’t fear what will happen because when you do, someone will fall in love with the beautiful life you’ve created behind the wall. They’ll fall in love with your makeup less face, the breakdowns, the drunk confessions and most of all they’ll fall in love with the girl who believed no one could love her. They’ll fall in love with your little habits, and the way you do things your own way. They’ll take you places you thought you’d only go in your dreams and you’ll show them the world you found behind your deep walls. They’ll follow you this time instead of turning their back. Letting someone in won't always result in a heartbreak because maybe, if you let the right someone in, you’ll get the life you’ve only seen in your dreams. So don’t be afraid to break down the walls you built so people can see the beauty that’s been hiding behind it.
