First off, to the friends I have lost, I want to say thank you. I have cherished the moments we have had together more than you realize. I remember dancing in the middle of the road in your neighborhood and watching scary movies. I remember playing with chalk and taking pictures. I remember spending several New Year's Eve celebrations together and seeing movies. I remember fawning over boys and fan-girling over "Twilight" with you. Each time we were together was a blast. We had our ups and downs and then eventually just drifted away.
For a while, I kept trying to make our friendship work, but in the long scheme of things, it just wasn't meant to happen. I'd try and give up and try again. There was always something there preventing us from being together; whether there was a boyfriend, new friends, school or simply busy lives a lasting friendship wasn't meant to be.
I'm not going to pretend that I am not upset about the loss or that I'm completely over it-- especially because I went back and forth for months, wondering if it was worth it to give our friendship another try or not. I did this to myself until I was physically sick and unable to put my all into the friendships I still had. I was consumed with not letting people go, because I knew what it felt like when people just disappeared and I didn't want to do that. I'm sorry if I let something that wasn't meant to be drag on longer than necessary when you just wanted me to leave you alone.
Now, I just sit back and smile when you appear on my news feed and favorite funny tweets. Occasionally I'll leave a comment, just with some little hope that one day, we will be friends again. I appreciate all the moments we have had and will look fondly on our time with each other; I look over the bad times in order to be thankful for the things you've taught me. From you I have learned to be a better friend to those people I have and to know when it is finally time to let go.
Thank you, friend. I will be here for you if you ever need me and know that I appreciate you and all that you've done and taught me.
