To the friends I’ve lost, gained and all those in between:
If I’ve lost you, I miss you. I’ll admit that straight out. I admit the fun times we used to share, all the pictures we took and the memories we made. You guys have left a taboo over great memories that sometimes I wish just weren’t there. I don’t blame you for it- I know we were meant to go our separate ways- but it still hurts.
To some people, your friends in high school are your friends forever. For others it takes a little longer to find those BFFs. I didn’t want the latter. I wanted it to be like the ending of Grease where they all believed they would stay friends forever, no matter where they went or what they did. But high school droned on and I found myself slipping from reality, silently struggling and reaching out for hands that were no longer there. I don’t hold grudges, but my heart is still broken in some ways.
It’s really hard losing a friend. When it’s gruesome, it feels like a heart wrenching breakup. You scroll past their Facebooks posts as fast as you can because you don’t want to see who’s replaced you, and feel the loss all over again. Other times people just fade apart and you find yourself looking at their Instagram pictures thinking “Why didn’t I stay in touch?” To those people, the ones I’ve accidentally left behind, I hope I muster the small amount of courage to reach out to you again. You were and still are amazing.
And to the close friends I gained in high school, the people who helped me find myself again when I was lost, broken and confused, please don’t think just because I don’t text you every day, you’ve ever left my heart. For a few fleeting moments before I had to leave for college, I found the people I wanted to spend my time with, the friends that made every moment an amazing moment. You completed me. You gave me hope.
To the friends I’ve lost, I bid you adieu, but more importantly, I'm so happy with the friends I've found.
You are the best people I have ever met in my life- and I like to think I've met some amazing people. When I was tossed to the side by one group of friends, it took me a while to find another. Now in college, embracing my chance to start all over, I have found some of the most genuine and heartfelt people the world has to offers and I couldn’t be more grateful.
Every friend I’ve made brings something different to the table. We all have our strengths and our weaknesses, our likes and our dislikes, but we all mesh well together. I have never met a group of people who has had so much love to give, it’s brilliantly overwhelming. Everyone is their own little ray of sunshine and everyone’s existence makes me overjoyed. The differences between you guys and the friends I’ve lost could not be more different nor make me any happier.Io
I look forward to four years of fantastic, fun-filled memories with you guys and then many, many more. Thank you all for being my light in the darkness; I’ll always be there for you, and to all the amazing people who have stuck by my side through thick and thin. Thank you for calming me down, keeping me grounded and brightening my day. In dark and trying times, people like you make everything easier.
