Dear friend,
When I first heard the news of your passing, it felt like everything I had ever known fell to pieces around me. I went a little crazy for a while; I didn't know what to feel. I became so bitter. No amount of anger or sadness could fill the void that was left in my heart the day you passed. I didn't think I'd ever be able to move on and forgive myself for not spending more time with you. It's easy to say that the weeks following your passing were the hardest of my life.
It's been three years now since I got the news, and even though the pain has lessened with time, I hope you know that I'm still thinking of you, today and always. Although your life was cut short, you taught me so much. I wish I had told you when you were still alive how much I valued the friendship that we had. I wish I had told you how proud I was to be your friend, and that I always wished I could have had even a little bit of the confidence you had in yourself. You were such a spectacular person, and I am truly honored that you chose me as a friend.
Life has gone on without you, and at first, it was really hard to accept that. I still feel guilty about that unopened text from you that's still sitting on my phone. Sometimes when things get a little too unbearable, I take a short drive down to the river and have chats with you. But I can't help but wonder if you can actually hear me from way up there.
I was thinking of you the other day, and then I saw some beautiful geese gliding down from the sky into a crystal clear pond, and I knew that you were there with me in that moment, sending the geese down to greet me. I like to think that you stop in and check on me every once in a while. I know I'm not the top priority on your list of people to watch over, but I hope I meant enough to you that you're at least curious to see how I'm doing sometimes.
Our friendship was built on laughter. I don't think we ever had a serious conversation, and that's what I loved so much about you. You always had me laughing. Always. I miss our stupid jokes so much. I miss doing stupid things with you. I just really miss you.You're missed so much down here by so many people that loved you more than words can describe. You were such a beautiful person that was taken way too soon. I hope you're doing OK where you are.
Love,
Me
