Dear Best Friend that I used to know,

Where did you go? We were always at each other's sides that nothing could pull as apart except when I went to college and you found a boyfriend. The day that I left for college, you came over to my house and made a promise to me that you would always be there. Nothing was supposed to change. Two years later, you still haven't come to visit me.

I could tell you I miss you again but I know it does not hold any weight with you. I'm just a voice on the other end of the phone or a text that you just read and respond three hours later. Maybe it just makes it easier that you can't physically see me. It's easier to ignore than to rather deal with our struggling relationship. I can't help to stop and think, "What happened to us to get to that point?"

I do have days where I think and miss the memories of us, driving around in your car and singing G-Eazy songs. We had adventures of going to the carnival and buying matching clothes. We had each other that summer and I can't thank you enough for being there during that time where we both were transitioning into our lives. Sadly, it gave me hope that you were gonna stick around a little longer.

I understand that we are living two different lives but at one point, I need you in my life. The calling went down between us and the texting became more delayed to the point where it was easy to just forget about you. I had to pick myself up and realize that you were never coming back. The friendship that we once had died when I left for college. I'm still struggling to realize that you are officially gone. When we planned to go to that concert together and you just stopped replying back to me. It was an easier way for you to tell me no, I'm not coming anymore. It was probably the biggest disappointment.

I do pray in those few moments that you find yourself again. That you'll get the strength to finally leave your boyfriend, who is a negative person in your life. I know that you are unhappy with your life. So why let these good years go to waste by being unhappy? Partying can only last you for so long until you realize how alone that you truly are.

When you do realize it, I might not be that same girl from that summer ago. I wish you the best of luck with whatever happens to you but I do need to distance myself from you because our relationship is starting to become toxic for me. At the end of the day, I know you are gone.