I close my eyes and envision June 7, 2015, in my head day after day. The day I dreaded most had come, reality smacked me in the face. I wasn't expecting to lose my best friend, my mom so soon.
Just a few things I want you to know:
Dear Mom,
I'm OK.
I know before you departed to heaven you were worried about leaving me but I'm being strong--Justin and Lilly are doing well too! Before you left I promised you I wouldn't be mad at you if you had to leave me, I pinky promise I'm not. Although sometimes I find myself feeling discouraged because I can't call you to talk or simply give you a hug but then I remember you're always with me.
I am who I am because of you.
Although our time together was cut short when you departed to heaven I want you to know who I am today is because of you. The lessons you have taught me along with watching you struggle from time to time has made me who I am.
Keep sending me signs.
The signs you send me simply keep me going. Whenever I'm having a rough day I always feel you sending me a sign to brighten up my day. Your signs help me when I'm feeling down so please, please continue sending them!!
I hope I’m making you proud.
I've always tried hard to make you proud but since you've left I feel motivated to excel and try harder than I ever did before. I wish you could be here to hold my hand and send me little motivational texts.
I miss you more everyday.
As the days go I miss you more and more. I even miss getting yelled at but what I miss most are your hugs. Knowing ill never share a memory with you again hurts but knowing you’re always with me helps me get by.
We didn’t forget about you.
Many people that love you started a scholarship fund in your name, something you’ve always dreamt of. You will always be remembered for the bubbly, strong women you were.
I’ll never forget about you.
I won’t forget the sound of your laugh or voice. I’ll remember the feeling of your hugs always. I’ll never forget all the memories we shared.
I will always love you.
The love I have for you mom is everlasting; it will not end because you’re not here with me.
Love always,
Gingerlynn
P.S. There's so much more I wish I could tell you!
