It's 2 a.m. & you're still sitting awake, staring at your blank ceiling. Wondering why, why they aren't replying to your messages. Why you aren't invited out with your "friends". Why your life consists of just you, only you.
You aren't alone, trust me when I tell you that you are not fighting this battle alone. And it's okay, to scream, to cry, to be lonely & angry. It's okay to be mad because you don't know why it seems that no one wants you or wants to spend time with you. That no one seems to take the same level of interest in you as you have already taken in them. Not everyone is like you, and that's okay, too.
There comes a time where you have to learn, to let go, of all the toxicity & negativity that others can bring to your life. Before you know it, you are drowning in the bad vibes. More importantly, you need to let go of all the toxic & negativity you bring to your own life. There is nothing wrong with you, there is nothing that you need to change about yourself if you don't want to.
What other people think & feel about you doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is how you feel about you. What you think about you. How YOU are as a person. Love yourself so no one has to. Teach yourself how to love you, in your own skin, with all your flaws first, then you can love others too & they can love you & you can finally accept the treatment you deserve. You can't sell yourself short because other people have screwed you over.
You will always say "next time things will be different" or "maybe it's just me" but you can't hold yourself accountable for other people's actions. The only person you are solely responsible for, is you. How you act & react, how you survive on a day to day basis is solely a reflection of how much you love, cherish & respect yourself. How can anyone else respect you or take you seriously if you don't respect yourself or take your views & opinions seriously?
At the end of every day who is there to help you? To love you? To cherish & take care of you? All you have is yourself. You are the only person that can't leave you. So what, you had a bad day, a bad week, a bad year? So be it. You aren't alone. There are millions of others that are just like you. Pick yourself up, brush yourself off & move onward.
Once you start taking care of yourself, it becomes so much easier to help take care of others. You are okay. You will survive. You are important. This too shall pass.
Love yourself first.
