Today marks one year…

One year since you were admitted into the hospital. One year since we last saw your infectious smile and heard your voice. One year since your family held you in their arms… One year since you took your last breath.

One year…

Nothing can prepare you for what it’s like when you lose someone you love; the tears you cry, how you question your faith and God’s purpose, the overwhelming void that takes over your heart, and so much more.

I thought that 365 days would at least put a small dent in how much this hurt, but it hasn’t. It’s been 365 days of missing you, 365 days of trying to be strong, 365 days of trying to forget… It’s been 365 days, and I still feel everything I felt on the day you joined God in Heaven.

Time has flown by so fast over the past year. Throughout this past year, there has been so much that has happened that I wish I could share with you in person, but I know that you’re always watching over me and are always in my heart. You are with me on my worst days, giving me strength to wipe the tears that run down my face. You are with me on my best days, and I smile and thank you for your love and blessings. Even though I can’t physically see you, I know that you are walking with me through this journey we call life. This past year has been hard, so incredibly hard, but I am so thankful and blessed for the subtle and gracious signs and reminders, of you and your presence in my life, when I need them the most.

I always seem to realize just how much I truly miss you when something good or bad happens because the only person that I want to tell is you, but you’re not here. I miss our friendship, your spunkiness, the way you could light up a room just by walking in. I miss our sisterhood, your sarcasm, your love for your family, God, your friends, and for life in general… I miss you.

I know a thousand words, a broken heart, and daily prayers can’t bring you back, but I wish they could so I could spend the day with you just one more time...

~ So I could give you one more hug.

~ So I could laugh at your jokes one more time.

~ So you could see how much you’ve impacted this world, and how your legacy continues to live on.

~ So you could tell me one more time to stop whining because of how much I miss you.

~ So I could have one more chance to tell you, “I love you.”

Today marks one year…

One year ago, God called you home. One year ago, your battle was won; our prayers were answered; and you were finally set free. One year ago, you gained your angel wings and joined God in Heaven.

One year…

And I still miss you more than ever ❤