Dear future husband,

I've been scouting the world for you.

High, low, behind bushes, even in my dreams. You are the half I've needed all along. You are the one I've been yearning for.

In my search to find you, all I would seem to find is heart break and broken promises. My journey has been a series of disappointments and what ifs. Men, or should I say boys, have broken down my ability to trust and love. Although I commend your efforts at hide and seek, over the years my patience has grown thin. Those years alone hold some of the best times, and most definitely a vast majority of the worst times.

You are a turd ya know. I've spent many nights alone in the car begging for you. I spent so much time crying and dragging myself through hell to become the ideal woman for you. That was me being selfish. They say good things come to those who wait.

I wondered if you would ever come. I wondered if I deserved you. I wondered if you did find me, would you even want me. I let my soul get lost in this game.

I hope you accept my emotional scars and bruises. I hope you will be there to comfort me while I go through my "everyone hates me" moments. I hope you show me how wonderful life is and has been

You have to be willing to show me a little extra attention on the days I feel like I'm all alone. I hope you show me how to live without feeling like an absolute failure to everyone I know. I hope you will reassure me that I deserve to be loved. Let me know often that I am worth it, and that I'm always appreciated. Make me believe in the fairy tale of happily ever after.

Most importantly I hope you give me strength and help me stay uplifted. I hope you show me that we can beat the odds and thrive. I want you to show me how beautiful life can be when you've found the one. I want to share everything with you. I want to live life together. I want to enhance your life and I want you to be proud of me.

Now, future husband, I know you will do these things. I wouldn't have chosen you if you hadn't. You must be wonderful. You must be the most encouraging and courageous person I know. You have to be the most thoughtful man on the planet. You love my family as I will yours. Together we can change the world, and this world could use a little change.

One day we'll be happy, and you will have helped me find my lost soul.

My dearest friend,
If you don't mind
I'd like to join you by your side
Where we could gaze into the stars
And sit together now and forever
For it is plain as anyone could see
We're simply meant to be
-The Nightmare Before Christmas