I never asked for this position I was born into it, like royalty I couldn’t refuse.

The sound of loud rap lyrics play through white walls that are just a little to thin. Soon the lyrics are followed by a much to out of tune voice that cracks when trying to hit a high note. Blinking away the crust that gathers undeath my lashes I pull my blanket up higher as if the soft material will block out the noise. Flipping over I place a pillow over my head for an extra precaution.

For a second the music has turned off and the only noise in the background is my fan that keeps the summer heat away. However, peace and quiet never stand a chance in this house. Suddenly, my door crashes in with my seventeen year old brother singing off key. Saying something about toothpaste he goes to the bathroom. Followed shortly after by my bickering two little sisters who come and sit on the bed.

This is what makes me consider if jail time would be worth it.

See here is the thing. I have four siblings each a different than the other, but all of them make me want to punt them to mars. I can say that because I am the oldest out of five children and me not killing them is an accomplishment. However, I wouldn’t give them up for the world because we might be dysfunctional but we love each other. Plus I don’t think anyone else could deal with filling in the older sister's role with my brood.

There are some unexplained things when it comes to being the oldest.

1) You were the experimental child.

Every rule and bedtime assigned to your siblings was made because your parents tested it all out on you first.

2) You are the role model

Your parents always make sure to tell you that your siblings look up to you. It can feel like ten like a million bricks on your shoulder with all that responsibility. However, seeing your siblings glance up at you with admiration is kind of cool.

3) You're kinda the mini adult

Growing up with a stricter upbringing you tend to fall into the role for ordering your siblings around. The trick is to make them think that they want to do the things that you tell them to do.

4) You tend to be the default babysitter

When the adults are away the kids will play. You might complain that your siblings are annoying, but the extra cash is nice.

5) You're competitive

The eldest always command that it be known that they are the best and always have to prove it.

6) Your siblings end up doing what you tell them

This is an addicting thing, because your parents told your younger siblings that you are in charge. Meaning that you can order them to do whatever you want, but always made sure to never get caught.