Why Turning 20 Was Bittersweet

Why Turning 20 Was Bittersweet

There is a beauty in the fear of growing up.
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The idea of turning 20 this year frightens and excites me. Suddenly, it seems as though life is getting so serious and I have no room to make any mistakes. No longer being a teen and that in itself is a huge transition. Somewhere deep in me, I am beyond excited to be one step closer to actually starting my life.

Personally, I have felt as though being nineteen has been one of the hardest years of my life. There have been a lot of changes that seem to be calling for a huge transition but right now they seem to be like a hovering cloud constantly bringing me down. Entering your 20's is a big deal. These next ten years are crucial in terms of education, career, and relationships. This is a time where everything becomes serious, every single decision has a larger magnitude in terms of consequences and honestly you just do not feel like a kid anymore. Life almost seems 'boring" and the same things are not as exciting as they used to be, but it is more than that. It is a transition into becoming an individual of the real world.

However, there is also this side of me that is awaiting the big 20. It almost seems as though I have exhausted all the "teenage" in me and I am ready to actually be an adult. It is similar to the feeling of graduating high school where yes it is sad it is over, but you almost feel as though it is time for a change and that you could not possibly do another year of high school. You feel more evolved, older, mature and college is the next big step you are ready to take on.

Life is constantly about moving forward. That is essentially how are lives are designed. We have to constantly grow and enter into the next phases of our lives. Whether we are ready or not, we have to learn to deal with it. Time does not wait for anyone. It feels nice to be in one comfortable place in life but it is really about how you handle the hard transitions. Growing up is all about learning to take on one more battle than the day before.

This is why I feel both happy and scared to be becoming 20 within the next few months. I feel ready to take on this new chapter in my life and I feel others who are in the same boat as me should feel the same way. Of course, it is going to take some time to adjust into a new mentality and take on new challenges but it can only go up from here!

Meeting new people, learning new things, becoming the person you want to be, what is more exciting than that? It is the time to create, learn, love and embrace a new age.

There is a beauty in the fear of growing up, but as my father always tells me, "you can never grow older, but only wiser".


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1. "Can I wear your shirt out tonight?"

2. "Does my hair look greasy?"

3. "We should probably clean tomorrow..."

4. "What should I caption this??"

5. "Is it bad if I text ____ first??"

6. "Should we order pizza?"

7. *Roommate tells an entire story* "Wait, what?"

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10. "McDonalds? McDonalds."

11. "GUESS WHAT JUST HAPPENED."

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13. "Why is there so much hair on our floor?"

14. "I think I'm broke."

15. "What do I respond to this?"

16. "Let's have a movie night."

17. "Why are we so weird?"

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19. "That guy is so stupid."

20. "Do I look fat in this?"

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29. "I need coffee."

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34. "Sometimes I feel like our room is a frat house..."

35. "Guys I swear I don't like him anymore."

36."Can I borrow a pencil?"

37. "I need to get my life together...."

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39. "Let's walk to class together."

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14 Pieces Of Advice I Have Learned Throughout My Life

I live my life by this advice.

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I have been incredibly lucky to have people in my life who give me endless amounts of advice in any situation. Whether the advice is coming from my parents, friends, church leaders, or teachers, it has all helped me throughout my life. This list contains just a few pieces of advice I have been given throughout the years.

1. "Who cares! Just sing it!" Age 16

I'm a terrible singer. I used to hate signing out loud, but after one of my mentors told me "Who cares! Just sing it!" I have loved breaking out into songs at any moment throughout the day.

2. "Being short does not mean you can't do something. Get a ladder." Age 15

My whole life I have been one of the smallest. With being short comes struggling to reach the top shelf, being able to see, and people believing your real age. One day, I was complaining about my height and a pal told me this simple line.

3. "Don't let your past claim you." Age 13

Prior to junior high, I struggled a lot with personal things. As time went on, I made that who I was instead of letting it be a part of my story. It became my name more than anything else. I was sat down and this was spoken to me.

4. "Don't let people tell you who you are, especially strangers." Age 13

This one goes way back. I don't want to sound stereotypical or anything, but I'm pretty weird. Alright, maybe not weird but I'm not afraid to be who I am. I have had people comment on this, some mean, some nice. Those people don't get to decide who I am, though.

5. "You get to decide what you're afraid of." Age 18

This one hit me hard. Change is terrifying to me, so this was perfect to hear at 18.

6. "Let people help you." Age 17

Gosh. This is hard for me. I am pretty independent. I like to accomplish things by myself a lot of the time. What I have learned over time, though, it is hard to do everything by yourself. Even writing an Odyssey article cannot be done alone! There are things that I either miss or mess up completely! We all need help!

7. "How do you want to be remembered?" Age 18

Yes, this is a question, but it is a piece of advice. It is a reminder for me. Am I who I want to be?

8. "Be careful with your heart." Age 17

A quote I hear (and say) a lot is "Boys are dumb." We or I don't say this because I want to be mean. It is more-so said because boys (and girls) will break your heart even if you were never in a relationship. I'm going to stick with my dog. He'll never break my heart.

9. "Just dance." Age 19

I'm a horrible dancer. Seriously and truly a terrible dancer. I am the epitome of a stereotypical white person dancing. It's horrible, but I still love it, and it brings me so much joy. So, I'm going to dance.

10. "What do you think of when you think about him?" Age 19

This is another question, but the advice within the answer of this question is so good. Is my answer joyful or is it harmful?

11. "It's your future. Do what you want to do." Age 16

I have this wild dream of working for a hockey team as my career. Some people think it's crazy and will never work out. Others are behind me 100% with it. Even when someone says, "you know there's a lot of work with that." I remind myself of what one of my pals told me a while ago.

`12. "Don't do anything you're going to regret." Age 20

Classic. Thanks, Dad.

13. "Can't is a state of mind." Age 15

I learned this one when I was in high school. It has stuck with me all these years. It is something I will tell myself forever. I have to give a shoutout to teachers and future teachers. Believe in your students.

14. "Don't date a boy who likes Notre Dame." Age 4

My dad told me this when I was four. He sat me on the stool in our kitchen and preached it out. I was simply a confused four-year-old who did not care one bit about football, and I thought boys were gross.

This advice has helped me out a lot in life. It has helped me to succeed. It has helped me become who I am supposed to be. It has also helped me to realize it is okay to ask for help.

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