To the girl who knows all my secrets,
I used to ask myself everyday what I did to make things end the way that they did. I would try and pinpoint the exact moment at which we officially stopped being best friends and became strangers; I could never figure it out.
I hope that it wasn’t over a boy. Could it have been that we both changed into the people we are today or did we get new best friends and no longer needed each other? Whatever the reason, I am thankful that I did get to call you my best friend at one point in time. We shared laughs, tears, and some of the best memories of our lives. I am angry, but not at you or even at myself anymore. I’m mad at society and the fact that it is 100% normal to just cut such an important person out of your life and not even know why.
I am thankful that you taught me how to deal with loss. Even though you aren’t gone forever, you are gone from my life after being in it every day. I am thankful that you taught me what it was like to be so close with someone that they become your family.
I hope that our friendship and the ending of it, have taught you things too. I wish nothing but good things for you. I’m happy that I can still see how well you are doing through social media. Although it can sometimes be painful to see you making new memories with both old and new friends, I am genuinely happy for you.
It sucks when I hear the songs that we used to belt out in the car on the way home from school, or when I see a shirt or another thing that I know you would absolutely love in a store and I just have to keep walking.
Good luck with everything. I hope that you know I still care about you and that if you ever needed me for some reason, that I am just a phone call or text away.
Thank you.
Love,
The girl who misses herfriend