We want to be perfect. We want to remember ourselves as perfect. Even when we admit we are the exact opposite, we secretly wish to stand on a pedestal for everyone else to behold. Funny dream. Stupid dream. But we still dream. We try to live without mistakes, and that is our biggest problem. In our effort for gaining perfection, we tear ourselves down when we make small mistakes. And when we make big mistakes? We do not know what to do! We regret and regret with no clue how to fix the mess we made. These mistakes could be anything: breaking up with a friend, hurting yourself, not respecting your body, hurting your family, or something so horrible that you can only look back at it and cringe.
If you have not had one of these mistakes, then congratulations. I would not wish something so dramatic on anyone. For the people who do regret their big mistakes, and know that they can only remember them as being the worst person ever, I understand. It sucks. We know that we cannot even be close to perfect with that cloud looming over our heads. We have know idea where to go when we have been that low. It seems like there is no way out.
Surprisingly, there is. Take it from me, a girl who beats herself up over every single mistake she makes, it is possible. It is okay to make these mistakes. I swear, it is. Why? We are human. I know what one may think; it’s a cliche answer. However, nothing could be more true. The perfect life is impossible, but a life full of getting back up and moving on is. It’s called being dynamic. We make these horrible mistakes, and we go on. We somehow find a way to ask forgiveness from others, and sometimes we get it, and sometimes we don’t. Either way, we find the strength to forgive ourselves. I would take strength over perfection any day. I would take the bad memories instead of the fake memories. I would take being human walking on my own instead of being a statue on a pedestal ten out of ten times. Hurting and hating yourself for what you do is fine. However, at one point, forgive yourself, and find a way to love yourself. If you cannot fix the problem, it does not mean that you cannot fix yourself.
