College has probably been the best thing I could have done for myself. I’ve only been at SELU for a month and a half, but I’ve met a lot of interesting people that share a lot of my own values and are just genuinely nice people. They make me feel at home. I’ve enjoyed most of my classes so far; of course, you won’t like them all. My professors are really encouraging, and some of them are kind of funny. There’s also a lot more time than I’m used to, but I’ve been attending school events to pass the time. The soccer games are really fun to go to, and the club I’m in have back sales, and I hang out a lot with other members. I also took a Zumba class, and had more fun than I thought I would.
The thing is though, I’ve started feeling like I did before,
and I’m not sure why. I don’t know how to fix it. Sometimes I wake up in the
morning, and I feel better, but I don’t know if I’m just tired, or something
else. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore, and although it has been the best decision
for me coming here, I just don’t feel in control anymore like I did in the
beginning. I’m honestly scared. One day at a time, I suppose.