I sleep on the floor so you cant feel me shake
I sleep away from you so you don't hear my cry
All I want to do is cry...
I stay quiet to avoid questions
I sleep with you because I'm afraid to sleep alone
I'm mean because I hope you'll stop asking questions
I pretend I don't hear you so I don't have to talk
I just need to talk to someone
But I can't talk to you
I can't form the words
I don't want you to know how much I'm suffering
Even though it's hard to be happy,
I don't want anyone to know something is wrong
I wait for you to fall asleep
So I can sneak away
Take my journal and write down everything
To cry in peace
No one can help me
I am at a loss...
I don't make you happy.
I can't seem to do anything right.
I'm a terrible person.
I don't understand why you're so nice to me.
I don't deserve your kindness.
I just feel more and more self-conscious every day and you don't seem to understand.
I can't get you to understand the thoughts in my head.
And you aren't my therapist so
I don't feel like I should have to tell you what's wrong and everything when you don't.