Poetry On Odyssey: Last Thing On My Mind When The Sun Shines

I think of you

when the sun does not shine;

when I close my eyes;

I see us.

when the sun shines,

I feel nervous.

when I open my eyes;

immediately blind;

you did nothing;

I did nothing;

you speak;

I listen.

it becomes something;

I speak;

you listen.

It is something;

you ask;

I answer;

I question;

you retort.

we are back to nothing;

all I want;

is for you on board;

not asking why

anymore.

I cannot help you

If you help me;

nor can I help myself;

no, I don't want your help;

I learned more;

and need more.

You learned;

and earned

my trust.

I trust you;

you trust me;

so, that's that.

do not give me that crap,

I will see you;

when my vision

is complete.

when your help

becomes a need.

when my help

can make you see.

but, for now,

don't ask why,

or how;

because I still have yet to figure it out.

you may even know

all the answers

that have not yet been told.

please go ahead and scold;

just know,

there's nothing I can do;

when I don't love you;

you're always going to wonder,

and keep trying,

but, baby, I am not lying.

I love you, yeah.

but, you're not meant for me.

sure, I'll be there for you,

If you will be, too;

nothing should be news.

The sun will rise,

And one day,

I'll let you know if it shines,

Or if it still blinds.

For now,

Get your head out of the clouds,

and please just understand

now.