What is love exactly? When I hear love I think of endless happiness full of laughter, being able to feel secure, and being able to feel intense feelings for someone. My experience was way more complicated than happiness.. the love of my life was now a stranger that I didn't want to miss.
No matter how bad I knew it was coming to an end nothing could prepare me for this heartbreak. The more I tried to make things work the more it failed. I realized I was trying to fight for hope that wasn't even there And I was the only one fighting for us and that broke me . We was only hanging on a piece of thread that was waiting to break.
I was hoping maybe you would change for me , or better yet for us. I was supposed to be your everything but i was nothing to you.. you was supposed to be protector but i was a victim. You didn't care that you broke my heart . All you cared about was "who am I going to hurt next."
Im not mad that things didn't work out, I'm simply hurt. Im hurt that I put so much time and effort into something that simply fell apart. I'm not moved on yet but I'm slowly getting there. I still love you and I sometimes wonder how things would've been if we both tried. I have finally came to realize it's easier to grow and learn when you cut ties. Its hard for me to understand that concept but I know that timing is everything.