First of all, if you are combating an eating disorder, believe in me, you are able to do it! God has given to you a world full of many beautiful things to experience and it's not an illness like that which is going to dive you in a world without happiness!!!!

So, unfortunately, I had the pleasure to meet Ana, a voice that took over my body to destroy it! She tried but she didn't gain this fight.It's hard to have to deal with anorexia because from the moment you lose the power of yourself, it's like you are dead..It's Ana who is in control. Restricting my body to the best foods of the world and workout it was the beginning of the journey. I had the idea that I wanted to be healthier and this was enough to make this seed inside my body growing up. I was feeling good because I was eating more vegetables and fruits, I cutted carbs from my diet and I was losing weight...but the symptoms of anorexia started to appear. I was always cold and tired, my hair started falling, I lost my period, I didn't stay close to my family because they obligated me to eat and they used to make some comments about how much skinny and ill I was. Sometimes my mother used to scream with me and consequently I locked myself so many times in the bathroom to cry. This got worse when I found a teacher from 6th degree in the supermarket, she glanced me and she told me a thing like that " Oh, you are so thin, I'm sure you can't do exercise because your bones must hurt! You were more beautiful when you were a little more fat! If I were you I would start eating right now!!!". In the same day that she told me that I started eating compulsively… I could be able to eat everything because I was tired to hear the same thing, I was tired to be in this Earth!! Then I went from 45 to 60 kg. In 2019 I decided to hear myself and I've made everything to get a decent weight and I could do it. Nowadays I weight 54,7 kg and I'm giving to my body what she deserves because it's my home.. I can't tell you that I'm completely ok with my self-esteem but I have everything around me to be happy…I love eat healthy but I like to savour that pizza with extra cheese, I'm becoming a swimmer athlete, I have a great family, I mean,sometimes, my path gets worse because I just tend to complicate the process.

Anorexia is a thing which is staying in my body since 2018 and no..she isn't going to disappear forever but , at this moment of my life, my voice is superior to hers!!!