High School was weird for me, I went back and forth from being friends with everyone to being friends with no one. Growing up, I was always told that high school would be the best four years of my life! Yeah, no! I hated high school.

Have you ever wished so much that you could go back and do everything differently? Unsay that mean word, undo that mean thing, not be who you were? Well, that's me. For those of you that know me, you know that I am smart, kind, energetic, and I try really hard to be a nice person. But I used to be mean. Like I said high school was definitely not the best part of my life.

You meet those people who make you want to change everything about yourself to fit in with them. So you do and you don't bother thinking about what happens when you outgrow those friends.

For me it happened when I got a job, I met people that were totally different from what I was around every day at school and pretty soon, I was hanging with my new friends so often, I began to pick up things that they did. I started talking like them and acting like them until I was a completely different person, one who I now don't even recognize.

I went from being this innocent, social butterfly to a not a girl that was mean to everyone for absolutely no reason at all. Looking back, I can't stand who I was so it's no wonder that nobody else did either.

I lost a lot of friends at school because I was too caught up in being this mean girl that everyone at work liked but no one that really mattered did. Then I changed again, just a small thing within myself but it made all of the difference. I didn't want to be that person anymore and I never will again.

That girl was mean to everyone and pushed everyone away instead of doing the one that could help... Talking to someone. I was going through so much pain and I was angry at the world until one day I just let it all go. I opened up to someone and from that day forward I was free. The walls that I had built so high were torn down and I was an open book, a clean slate.

So I refuse to be that girl again. Yes, I am mean sometimes, we all are.. Yes, I say things without thinking, we all do. Yes, I love with everything I've got and no fear of what might happen, like we all should. But, I am unapologetically me and at the end of the day there is no way that I would rather be.