I don't know who you are or if I've met you yet or if I'll meet you a week from now or a year from now. You could even be reading this article and have no idea that it is, in fact, about you. Wherever you are and whoever you are, here are just a few things you should know about me.
First, my heart is big, but it is fragile.
The last person I gave my heart to wasn't very careful with it, but then again, neither was I. I let him haphazardly throw my heart around because deep down I thought he deserved it. I love people very deeply and I find it hard to walk away from someone I care about, no matter how they treat me. I just want you to be aware that I will give you everything I have because that's just who I am, but you have to promise that you won't take advantage of that. My heart is full of love, but it can't take too much more of a beating.
I struggle with insecurity.
This is a day-to-day thing with me, some days I feel great and other days are just really really bad. Girls are told that we shouldn't seek validation from boys, but we all know it always feels better to hear "You look pretty today," from the guy you like than hearing it from your bestie. What I'm getting at here is that there will be days you could tell me I'm beautiful a million times, but it may not change how I feel and that has absolutely nothing to do with you. It's something I'm working on, but I will always appreciate your compliments, even when it doesn't seem like it.
I have a ton of feelings.
Just ask any of my friends and they will most likely tell you I am the most dramatic and overemotional person they know. I cry a lot, I laugh a lot, I can get angry easily, but it also means I love and I don't hold back. There's a 99 percent chance that you will get tired of how many times I tell you how great you are or how happy you make me or how much you mean to me because I have a strong desire to always express those emotions. I'm going to laugh a little too loudly at your jokes, cry a little too much at your sappy words, get a little too heated in a fight but I will love you fiercely through it all.
Lastly, I'm terrified.
As much as I love love and as much as I want to give my heart away, I am absolutely and utterly terrified. My heart has been put through the ringer and my trust has been broken one too many times. I will seem like I've opened up to you, but it's going to take a while for you to break down all of my walls. I'll be seemingly carefree, but underneath, I'll be secretly cautious. It might take some work to get down to who I really am, but I guess if you really deserve my heart, you'll work for it.
I may have had a bit of a rough past, but I'm looking forward to a better future.