I'll start where it all began..

When I was a little girl my mother used to tell me to always take advantage of lives choices because the thing about opportunities is that they only show up once, that life is this big blob of feelings and emotions but most importantly is full of sacrifices.

Of course I never listened, because I always seemed to have my own opinion about fate, my big question to the world was who truly knew? Who knew the answers and the right paths? All I knew was that I had an entire life to figure it out.

With all but one thought in my head I knew that my senior year of high school was approaching and it was time to choose a college, make a decision or as some may say, mark my entire life by going to one facility that will change the rest of my life; I didn’t understand what college was, at the beginning of my senior year I wasn’t even sure what I wanted to do, all I knew is that I was tired of being a child; college meant freedom, being an adult and most importantly it meant starting over.

Because no one cares about how popular you are in college, or how many boyfriends you have had or how pretty you were, all anyone cared about was themselves and their future but how could I pick a school if I was still unsure of my life but not only that but my future itself. Fear was all that I felt for so many months, the fear of going to the wrong school and possibly ruining every chance I had of succeeding.

See, the funny thing about fate and destiny is that they are the thing that happens when we are not even looking, when we are too busy picking out prom dresses or worrying about who we are our friends are; months, days, hours went by and it was finally time to decide; the truth is that it didn’t feel like a choice, it felt like it was something was just waiting to happen.

The first time visiting campus, my new home for the next four years, it felt like my actual home, it felt cozy. It all seemed so scary; the whole idea of growing up and changing and being a new me, but I knew that if was going to do it anywhere it had to be in Farmingdale.

First semester went by, fear was gone and I felt like a total college student, the only difference is that I wasn’t being me, being in a new environment didn’t change anything; I still had insecurities and problems but I realized that I was trying to change me I knew who I was and I believed that you are who you are meant to be, as if you are already someone because everybody else is already taken.

Maybe I’ll never truly change, maybe I’ll always stay the same, but that’s just the thing about both fate and destiny, you can write your own path and call anywhere home as long as you are being you. And now I'm being me and that's okay.