Most of my articles that I have writen have been centered around my faith or around the ideas I believe because of my faith. I have enjoyed writing them, but towards the end of the year in 2018 I was feeling lost in my faith and so it was becoming hard to continue to write articles with no inspiration. It felt wrong to be saying one thing and then going along with my day and not follow through with the words I just wrote for people to read.
I understand that this world is not perfect and it is filled with distractions that are intended for us to fall short. However, I cannot continue to blame the world for the reason why I do not read bible everyday, pray to God about anything and everything throughout the day, attend church weekly and build fellowship within the church. I also know from experience that I can not rely on myself to execute these acts on my own because temptation becomes easier to fall into. When I fell into temptation it became a habit. I felt in my heart I wanted to change the way I was living my everyday life and it would look different if I just committed to setting out a time everyday to have quiet time with the Lord.
There are goals that I have set for myself, but starting off this new year God has already been showing me that I need to focus on figuring out myself. The first thing to this would be growing more in my relationship with the Lord and trusting in him. From there I know He will handle the rest. A certain Bible verse was brought to my attention and it really speaks to what I have been feeling with wanting a God centered life rather than a life with God mentioned in it when I want him to be. the verse is from Proverbs 16:3 and it says "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans."
Going back to school will get me back in a routine but that is part of the reason why I want this spiritual change because I do not want school which only matters on my time on earth the over rule what will effect my time spent in eternity. God's grace for me and love will and already has driven me to engage in with him everyday and I am excited to what he has in store for me this year.