I'm getting to that point now where I can look at pictures of us, or videos of us goofing around and not hysterically cry. I’m getting to the point now, where I can look at them and smile, and appreciate how happy I was in the moment. Granted you drug my heart through the dirt and left me there without a care. But while we were together you did make me happy. I’m over picking apart our relationship, and trying to figure out where I went wrong... we both went wrong in so many places. I was suffocated and overwhelmed with the love that we had for each other. I trusted you more than anymore. I let you in on so many parts of my life that I never let anyone else in on. I can honestly say I gave you and us my all. I truly thought that you were "the one". That’s why when it ended it was like an unexpected hurricane that ripped me off my feet, threw me down, and shattered my life completely.
It’s been almost a year since you ended things, and now that I’m not blinded by our love, and I’m not in that false sense of reality anymore, I can finally breathe again. I packed your things up a long while ago because every sight or thought of you would knock me off my feet.
Now I’m standing on my own two feet, without you by my side, and I’m doing just fine. For a long time, I didn’t see an end in sight for the pain that I felt after you left. I was so happy with you for so long, that I forgot what it was like to be alone, to be apart from you. But now, I’m back and better than before. I’m starting to live my life again, the way I want to, on my terms, and only for myself. I don’t need anyone, and I sure as hell don’t need you. The journey that I’ve been on trying to getting over you has been a rocky one. I only made it harder on myself because I had faith for so long after that we would be back together that it was an everyday sole crushing feeling. I’m so thankful I don’t feel that anymore. I went through our old pictures and videos, and I did it with a smile on my face. Because now I can appreciate the time we spent together when we were both happy. I'm so much stronger now than I ever was. I've come so far, on my own. After putting the pieces back together by myself, I now know that I don't need you. I never needed you. I just needed myself to be better and stronger, and now here I am.