A huge part of growing up and maturing is dealing with the unavoidable social categories. Whether it's the cliques at school, the groups at work, or just the overall structure of society, there are undeniable groups when it comes to who is popular and who is less than. As far as these cliques go, there is always an "It" girl and I, frankly, have never been her.
Do I mind? Not one bit. Because even though she received all of the attention and many considered her to be the most beautiful and likely to go far in life, I did not once envy her or the praise she received.
Being the "It" girl means constantly being in the spotlight and that is something I will say no thank you to on any given day. I hate being the center of attention; my anxiety loathes it. Constantly being the topic of everyone's conversation and the object everyone gazes at is not something I have wanted or ever will want.
It may sound like a cop out or whatever but being on the sidelines was enough for me. In fact, it was actually extraordinary. I could define who I was without attempting to fit into the molds of others. I could dress how I wanted, say what I wanted without other people commenting on it or even caring.
Never being the "It" girl meant becoming who I am today, and I would never give up that chance.
I firmly believe that I was not that girl because I wasn't meant to be. That girl in my high school, that girl at work, or whoever she is, is in everyone's mind for a reason and I am not for a reason as well. I don't mean to sound depressing or anything, it's just the truth and a truth I don't mind.
I'm not going to sit here and pretend that I feel like I missed out in high school or that I am somehow missing something because I am not that girl. I won't sit here and pretend because there is some societal norm that tells me that that is something to strive for.
I'm cool with what I have and who I have grown to be. I plan on continuing to grow as a person and I don't ever want to be defined as the "It" girl. I'll let her keep that definition and decide what she wants out of it.
I love being that girl on the sidelines. She's a pretty cool chick too.