Being the girl who has never been in love feels like one of the loneliest feelings in the world. The second you walk out your door, you are faced with couples walking down the street holding hands, laughing, and reminding you of what it is you do not have. You scroll down your social media timelines and see anniversary posts of those you attended high school with, while you're happy for them, there's always that question in the back of your head, why can't that be me? For me, it had always seemed that no matter how hard I had tried, I was never the one. I was always the girl who sat back and watched my friends form relationships while I never did. I still am that girl. As I witnessed these relationships begin, I was shown how happy somebody else could make you. This led me to become excited to find something like this of my own. Someone who felt like home, someone who could make me smile, and view me as the best thing in their world. Whenever I had grown interest in someone, I never seemed to receive this interest in return. This left me questioning my own self worth, Was I not pretty enough? Was I not smart enough? Ultimately, was I not enough? Even though my friends would tell me over and over how incredible they thought I was, I myself could not see it, I never seemed to believe it. After all, they are my friends, they're suppose to tell me things like that. It took me a long time to realize that who I was as a person was not the problem, it was how I viewed myself. I viewed myself as somebody who was incapable of being loved, as someone who would never be loved. You are always taught that you cannot fully love someone without learning to love yourself first, but it was not until recently that I had learned the importance behind that statement. I have since realized, I am capable of being loved, and although I have yet to find this love, it does not mean I never will. So even though you are feeling lonely while seeing all those around you happy in relationships, you must understand that someday, when it is right, you will forget what the feeling of loneliness had ever felt like. Until then, focus more on yourself, and never allow this to make you question yourself, you are enough, and someday, somebody else will realize it also.
