I was broken when you came into my life. I had just been broken up with by the first boy my heart had ever belonged to. He had taken my once whole heart and ripped it to shreds. I never thought I would get over the heartbreak I was experiencing. That is, until you.
You came into my life at one of my worst times, yet you still didn’t flee the scene. You were my friend. You consoled me when I cried and stood by me and allowed me to vent to you for hours about the irrelevant boy who broke my heart. Looking back I realize how annoying that must have been, but you never complained. Soon we blossomed a friendship. We became inseparable and you became my best friend. We shared our hopes and dreams, as well as, our deepest fears and regrets. You learned more about me than I knew about myself. We endured long bus rides and countless band competitions together. It was no surprise our friendship turned into a relationship. You were the first guy to show me what it felt like to be loved. You were the first guy to show me what it was like to be treated like a princess. You were the first guy to treat me like more than just an object. For the first time I could actually picture a future with someone. Even though we were young I pictured the many adventures I dreamed we would go on and the names we would give our children.
I pictured us being forever. I guess I never realized forever had an expiration date.
We went on to date for almost two years. I thought that maybe I deserved to be loved the way you loved me. After all, that is what every girl dreams of. But I didn't deserve your love. If i could go back and end it sooner I would and I'm so sorry, but I know having ended it now that that was what was best for you. It isn't because I didn’t love our time together, but because you deserve to be with someone who loves as deeply as you. Someone who deserves to be treated the way you treated me. Please know it was nothing you did. Please know you were absolutely amazing to me and I will never forget our late night texts and the places we traveled. Please know that you saved me from the demons that once resided in my mind. Without you I'm not sure I would still be here. Please know that you made my heart whole once again. Please know that you deserve the best, and sadly, that isn’t me, but that’s okay. You will find someone much better and who can love you so much better than I ever could. I really thought you were the one for me. You were my definition of perfect. I wish I was deserving enough to have such an amazing and perfect guy such as you, but I know I could never deserve you.
