I love makeup. My heaven is filled with puppies and an Ulta. It should be a crime how bad I beat my face on the daily but I'm always asked one question-- who is all that makeup for? I used to laugh and brush it off, but I refuse to anymore. Why is acceptable for people to expect we wear makeup for others??

Putting on my makeup every morning is a form of therapy for me. It's an hour out of my day where I just focus on myself and am truly relaxed, besides when I'm trying to perfect my wing. I will blend four different shades of eyeshadow in my crease just to create a 'shadow'. My attitude for the day depends on how I did my makeup--I could be grunge, I could feel like a fairy princess, or I can feel like a badass.

But I do all of that for one person, me. It makes me feel better about myself and makes me happy. I spend all that time and money because I want too, not because I feel I have too. Guys comment on it, saying I wear too much or that they don't think I need it, and that's true. I don't need to cake pounds of makeup on my face, but it makes me feel better about myself and that's what truly matters at the end of the day, right?

I watch makeup tutorials, have a list of my dream makeup that's longer than a phone book, and follow beauty icons to see what the newest trend is. It's art to me, I envy girls that can pull off any look they try. I've never seen so many beautiful girls being truly confident in their skin, and when I see a girl flick her wing perfectly I can't help but cheer her on. Girls come together and compliment a woman when she posts her makeup for the day and it is wonderful to see women treating each other with the love we all deserve.

So the next time you tell me my makeups too expensive or that I spend too much time getting ready, know one thing. I do not care what you have to say about this. If it helps me get out of bed every morning who are you to judge it? I don't judge if guys want to play NBA 2K for hours on end, so don't judge me when I binge watch Nikkietutorials videos on Youtube.