What do you do when you’re in a new place and you look up and no one is there for you? It’s like I’m drowning and I can see everyone staring down at me from the surface. I’m on my own and no one is reaching in to help me out.

I’m tired of waiting to be saved. I will learn how to swim on my own.

Living with anxiety is hard. I have overcome depression but I still have spells. No one knows when I am feeling depressed or anxious because I don’t have anyone to talk to about it. I constantly feel like I am going to pass out because my anxiety is so bad. But I didn’t choose this and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Yet, my triggers surround me. I am constantly left behind. I am dropped because I am not good enough. When a new opportunity is presented to me I hear “you are a disappointment” echoing in my head.

Instead of worrying about the opinions of others, I will focus on my own opinion of myself. I am not living to be who everyone wants me to be. I will be who I know I am. I will shake off the standards people put on me. I will purge myself of the negative thoughts placed in my head. I will learn to love myself unconditionally.

The biggest lesson that I have learned is that my worth is not found in the opinions of others. I spend way too much time worrying about what everyone thinks of me and that has caused me to not try new things. The Bible says, “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Who I am, what is in my heart and what I do or say will not be changed. God will condemn me of what is wrong and work through me to do what is right. I will live for God.

I will love who I am.

No one can form me into the person they want me to be. If this were the case, I would have a million personalities and that is not possible. I am constantly crying asking God, “What is wrong with me? What did I do? Why am I never good enough?” I will stand up with the armor of God and I will be confident in who I am. I will no longer be altered or broken down by anyone.

I will conquer my anxiety. I will push myself to try new things by myself. I will not wait for someone to eat with me. I will find comfort and peace in taking the time each day to enjoy a meal by myself. I will go to the gym by myself. I will put my headphones in and focus on my health, my thoughts, and my steps.

I will no longer focus on everyone else. I will close my eyes and focus on myself. I will take the time to do a face mask, paint my nails, and watch my favorite movie. I will rest and reassure myself that I am loved and I am worth loving.

I will work as hard as I have to for my dreams to come true. Being told that I am a disappointment or that I will never make it only motivates me more. I do not seek to please you but I seek to make myself proud. I will do all that I have set out to do and more. I know who I am and I will not be torn apart or changed.