I spent all my life being a good girl, loving myself so much so I can eventually give some to someone who truly deserve me, I build my own little peaceful world just so they can presue me, act like they care, show me what they want me to see, get me out of my comfort zone, get me to open up, give me just enough hope to me holding on nothing. Why do they lead me on if they’re not interested in building a future? Why come into someones life & damage all the good inside them? Why disturb someone you’re not ready for? Why when you develop true feelings for them, they walk away with a sad excuse? Why do they ruin the sweetest people & turn them cold hearted?
I sit in my room & cry myself to sleep every night & don’t tell anyone, because I don’t want feel like I’m bothering anyone especially when they don’t ask. I go through it alone. You never know what someone is going through. When I know my spirit can lift them up I let them use it, use it to make them happy. But I realize I can’t, I can’t fix them, I can’t get them to explain it or open up to me, I tend to try & try & try & try, but I end up breaking my own heart trying to care too much, but I gotta act like I don't. I can't communicate how I feel without someone thinking I'm arguing or trippin. I can't be happy because I always end up dissapointed. When I tell them exactly what I want & looking for, they think I'm forcing them. Why can’t I get that same energy I give. Lord knows from the bottom of heart I tried & that's all I can do. But me, my heart, my soul, & my feelings I have are tired of all those I'm unsure's, the idk's, & the I'm not ready's. Just to be push to the side & they giving it to someone else they clearly ready to change for with no hesitation.
Their gonna want you, but not enough to build, grow, or develop anything with you. Don't let a little boy’s confused minds rob you of your worth. Stop fucking with lil boys who are stuck in their ways & get you a king with genuine intentions, that’s willing to be the best man he can be. A real man comes in your life to restore you, he’ll choose you, you’ll know exactly how he feels without having to ask.
