My whole family voted for Trump. By whole, I mean my parents, my aunts, my uncles, my grandparents and my one cousin who is old enough to vote right now. I did not. So now I get to hear my family gripe and complain about people that I actually like and have friends that they don't like. Do you know how hard it is to have different beliefs than your whole family and feel like it's impossible to talk to them? Because it's pretty damn hard.

And I'm not even sure if they know that their first daughter, first granddaughter, first niece has different beliefs than them and inwardly cringes every single time these topics come up at the dinner table, but now they do (as long as they are reading this, which most won't). And these topics come up a lot, almost all the time. Topics about the wall and whether or not gays should be permitted rights and all of those topics, and this is why I don't come home from college very often. It's kind of hard to come home when you know that what you believe in will be ridiculed and turned over again and again and again. And you know that if you speak up and try to defend some of your beliefs, they'll just tell you that you're a child and don't know what you're talking about. It's difficult not having the same beliefs as your family because then you feel like an outsider and like you're not actually one of them and sometimes, you wish you weren't when they talk against things that you have a strong belief in.

I don't one hundred percent hate Trump, however. If he turns out to be a good president then good for him, he'll have made thousands of people rethink their ideas of him. But everything he has done and everything he has said up until this point has just made me sick to my stomach. Sometimes I can't believe my whole family voted for him and supports him but I respect their decision because they are my family just like I hope they respect that I don't support Trump (and, honestly, I don't think half of them will, that's the sad truth.) It's hard not having the same beliefs as your family, it is. But I'd rather believe in what I fully think is the right thing than act like I agree with what they believe in just to be a part of them.