This week was one of those weeks where I felt like I was at the bottom pit. Everything seemed to be going against me, and I for sure had no desire to do anything related to exposing myself publicly. This is probably coming from my lack of confidence, which sometimes goes up and down as the week goes by. It’s bipolar like my overall persona.
Confidence is something that is difficult for anyone to completely master. I can pridefully say that after over 18 years of life, I still struggle with confidence on an everyday basis. It can be something as simple as walking to my next class, or walking through the grocery aisle, wearing a new outfit, etc. Something that I have noticed is at the root of this is trying to conform to societal standards or trying to impress the people in my life. I feel as though if I mess up in anything, I receive disapproval or judgments from anyone in my life. This is a constant cycle that I feel any young adult understands especially in this time of maturing and discovering your true self.
One thing I recently noticed that helps with boosting my confidence and getting through tough days is exposing myself to art. Exposing myself to art has been and always will be my favorite stress-reliever--especially in spirit of the midterm season, late nights, espresso, lack of social life, constant eye rolls, and overflowing empty cups of instant noodles. I feel as though having a playlist for every mood is essential to my survival as a functioning being. I want to share some songs that make my heart race when I truly need it. These are (some) of the songs that lift my spirits and encourage to me to keep on going with life. To maybe even put a smile on my face and wake me up when I know I’m sleeping on my dreams.
