I don’t like putting my business out there for everyone, but I’m gonna get a little personal here. I recently started having these migraines. It would be this crazy sharp pain in my forehead and my veins pop out and it all around sucks. They have been lasting for weeks at a time and get worse throughout the day, but are even there when I first wake up. So, I tried to figure out why this was happening. I was told by a medical professional that I have to “reduce my stress level.” What the fuck does that mean? Reduce my stress how am I supposed to do that.
The stress in my life isn’t even that bad right compared to other parts of my life. I mean, I work full-time and go to school part-time and write for the Odyssey but that’s not even that bad. When I was a freshman at Penn State I went to school full-time and worked full-time all while having this crazy girlfriend that caused me more stress than any job or school could ever duplicate. This time last year I was working like 60 or 70-hour weeks, mostly 13 hours a day after getting thrown into a management position I wasn’t ready for in a broken store in the middle of a transition period between management teams. That was some fucking stress.
That just leads me to the question of why now? I got a handle on my job and that doesn’t really cause me the same level of stress that it used to. I started going back to school but I only am in one class right now that is not hard at all. So, it can’t be either of those things. I have a car that doesn’t run that was my pride and joy for a long time, but I know how to fix it. I just haven’t gotten around to doing it yet, and I don’t think that is causing me stress either. What is it? I’m writing for the Odyssey now, but that isn’t hard, and I do it on my own time and do not stress over it because I write whatever I want. I am single and don’t have some girl in my life that I have to worry about or anything like that. Still, the doc says my stress level and blood pressure are too high and that’s why I’m getting these mirages.
See here’s the biggest problem with all of this he told me I need to bring my stress level down right. I didn’t think I was that stressed but now I am trying to figure out what is causing me stress. Furthermore, I realize that this is causing me stress so I’m trying not to think about it causing even more. Should have never gone to the doctor.
Still, I do want to find out what is causing stress and how to relieve it. Am I going through some kind of like early-20's mid-life crisis? I don’t really think so. I’m actually the happiest I have been a really long time. I’ve kind of chilled out and I’m not like angry at the world like I used to be. So that really can’t be it.
Could It just be a bold pressure thing? I mean I don’t smoke, drink, or do drugs anymore. I’ve been eating better than I ever have in my whole life. I still have the McDonald’s lunch every once and a while, but it’s not like Big Mac with a ten-piece nugget and large fries anymore. I mean I don’t exercise or anything. Maybe that’s it I will give it a try. It might help, but it still doesn’t get me to the true cause of why.
Maybe I’ll never know, but I just needed to vent a little bit and try to put my thoughts together to try and help myself figure this thing out. Who knows maybe someone will read this and be able to help me relieve this so-called stress and my life and help to get these migraines to go away.
