I chose you, and I would choose you a thousand times over. I chose to smile, I chose to fall, I chose to laugh. All the things I chose to do, I chose to do with you. I chose to give you my heart without thinking twice, and you chose to destroy me.
I will never understand why you chose to just walk away with absolutely no explanation. You didn’t have to be with me, you chose to be with me. You didn’t have to be the perfect person for me, you chose to be that person.
I was completely blinded by everything you said. From the outside looking in you were perfect, but once I got inside I was shown a different side of you. A side of you that confused me but I let myself fall deeper because everything you did at the time was perfect and I knew a side of you that I WANTED MORE THAN ANYTHING.
You were so special to me, you lifted me up when I was down. You showed me true happiness. You showed me my self-worth, but then, I relied on you for my self-worth and that’s where I messed up.
I chose to let you in, completely. I chose to love you. I chose to let my whole life come crumbling down around me just so I could let you in because you asked me too. I chose to surround myself with your smiles, your laugh, your hugs, your kisses, your body. I chose to let you destroy me, but you didn’t have too. You chose to destroy me because of how vulnerable I was.
Because I let you in, because I let you destroy me, you’re all I can think about.
I still remember the night we first kissed, you looked at me like no one had ever looked at me. You wrapped me in your arms and made me feel safe for the first time in a very, very long time. I still ache for the moments we had together even after you’ve hurt me. I crave your kisses, I crave your touch. I crave your arms being around me. No matter what happened between us, I will always cherish what we had together even though you ruined it in a heartbeat.
I was the one you made promises to, I was the one you kissed passionately at random times throughout the day. I was the one who you chose to do life with, even if it was only for a short period of time.
You walked away, and I stayed.
I’m still here, even after you’ve hurt me.
I AM STILL HERE because we promised we would never leave and I don’t break promises. I am still here even after you played me for a fool. You used me and you took my heart and let it shatter like old glass. I’m still here because I still care, and I can’t just walk away like you didn’t mean a damn thing to me.
I’m still here because my heart belongs to you.
