I am so tired
And exhausted
Of feeling stuck in the same place
Yet time keeps going on without me
At such a fast-moving pace
Not paying any attention to my desperate pleas
For it to slow down and wait for me
Until I am ready
To venture out of this place
And find happiness and peace
Somewhere out there
Even though people tell me it’s within me
I often wonder, where?
I often wonder, how can that be when there’s nothing
But storms and fires raging inside of me
Angrily and undyingly
Keeping me up at night, never letting me sleep
Time is never on my side
And I’ve said this many times, but it really isn’t
And I often wonder if I’m really not meant to be anything
More than just this
I lose myself and fall into myself time and time
Again, and over
And then once more after
And I have realized that this process is just a result
Of this complex mind of mines
Where I feel absolutely everything
And the entire universe inside of me
As if I have swallowed it down like a pill
One far too big to swallow and now
I can’t spit it back out
There’s too much inside of me to kill
But this is what I am-
What I am is not what you make me out to be
And it is not all that I ever hoped to be
What I am is a mosaic of all human emotions
Who is at war with time
Now and forever
Forever and always
