For most people, the holiday season is the most joyful and rewarding time of the year. It is filled with love, laughter, and holiday cheer. To these people, there is nothing better than spending time with family and reminiscing on the year that will soon be gone. Yet there are some who wish the holidays away.

When you have an angel in heaven during Christmas everything becomes a constant reminder of them. Every Christmas song brings you back to a time when all was well in the world. The Christmas tree doesn't have the same sparkle that it used to. When you lose a loved on not only is your life forever changed but so is the holiday season.

Unless you have personally experienced a holiday season without a loved on, you will never understand how painful it truly is. The constant feeling of emptiness exacerbates. The hole in your heart gets bigger and bigger. No words could ever come close to describing the feeling of Christmas time without a loved one.

Everyone deals with life differently. Grief comes in all different shapes and sizes. There will never be a one-size fits all. For me, I have always tried to fill the void in my heart as the holiday season comes around. Instead of trying to fight my hurt and emptiness, I have come to embrace it. I can smell my grandmother's homemade cooking. I can hear my aunt's loud voice billowing through her tiny house. I can still feel and remember every ounce of their presence. The more I remember the less I feel like

I am celebrating without my loved ones, but celebrating with them. Your angel does not want you to cry or suffer this holiday season. Your angel wants you to reminisce in the good times and honor their memory.

Your angel may be in heaven, but they are only a glance up to the big man away.