Dear First Love,
Now that some time has passed between our break up and the anger has subsided, I can finally write to you without bitterness or regret in my heart. I have come to terms that our time together is over and I am ready to try to move on. You were a great learning experience and I wanted to thank you for the countless moments that I will cherish forever.
Three years went by in the blink of an eye. We successfully helped each other get through some tough times knowing we had each other to fall back on. We were each other's biggest fans and always went out of the way to help one another. You were the one person in my life I knew I could turn to and you would be there with open arms. The best thing you did was helping me find my way, in a time when I felt lost and confused, even in my own home. You were the light in my world of darkness and helped me to see the bright side of things.
Despite my past relationships, I never knew what it was like to love someone until I met you. You ignited a fire within my heart and made me feel invincible by your side. Whether you saw me at my best or my worst, you still loved me immensely. With you, I learned that "laughter is the best medicine." The solution to any of our problems was to laugh it out and move on. We used to laugh so hard until we cried or sometimes until the point where I thought I would vomit. Your laughter was contagious and it was definitely my favorite thing about you.
Aside from all the thank you's, I also wanted to say that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I broke your heart, but you broke mine way before I left you. As time passed, I grew more in love with you and it seemed to be the opposite on your end. You hid me instead of showing me off. You did and said spiteful things knowing they would hurt me. You made me feel worthless and boring. And worst of all, you let your friends disrespect me.
I wish I could pinpoint when things started going downhill for us. Why did you stop putting effort into our relationship? Why did you stop being the genuinely kind person I once knew? Why did you seem uninterested in me at times? These are all questions that will go unanswered, but I can now accept that moving forward.
Even though our time is up, I will always miss our late nights playing video games and watching Friends. I'll miss our book talks and the song guessing game we used to play on our car rides. I will also miss the happiness I felt after cooking a meal together. And, I'll miss the passion in your voice when you would go on a rant about something geeky you loved, such as World of Warcraft.
I admit that I wasn't perfect, nor will I ever be. I sincerely apologize for all the things I ever did to hurt you. I wish I could go back and fix my mistakes, but, "you live and you learn." Unfortunately, time changes people, but I learned that's apart of life.
I look back on our relationship and smile, hoping that people our age can experience something as real as we had. Some people may call us crazy for thinking we know what love is, but, "love knows no age" and we proved that. I hope that you know you'll always have a place in my heart. Thank you for loving me for as long as you did and thank you for letting me love you with every fiber of my being.
Wishing You The Best,
A loyal friend
