To The Man She's Going To Leave

To The Man She's Going To Leave

And as she writes her goodbye note, profound sadness comes into her heart and tears roll down her face, she hesitates...
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She's going to leave you.

If you keep acting the way you do, she's going to leave and never look back.

She's going to pack up her things and move on. She's going to see that she deserves more than a few hours when "you have time." She's going to cry the whole time but she is leaving you. You need to change. She tried to be okay with the way things were, she tried to change her own mindset, and she gave you thousands of chances. She wants to be with you but you only focus on yourself. As she cries herself to sleep at night, she hopes and prays to a God she doesn't even believe in that you'll give her what she needs. She needs you and your love. That's all. It's so stupidly simple.

She needs you to be there for her in her times of need, like she is there for you.

You're losing her. Every time she comes in last, it pushes her farther away. When your ex is more important than she is. She knows you have parental responsibilities and they should be first, but your ex shouldn't be second. When you ignore her for hours and all she needs is love and reassurance. She never sees or hears from you on the weekends because you are too busy with your other life.

She is going to leave you. The wounds on her heart are becoming too deep and she can't handle always hurting. She can't handle that she hasn't met the most important people in your life, when all she does is include you in hers. She wants to be your family, not an afterthought, not a chore to do. She can't handle the state of this relationship. And as she writes her goodbye note, profound sadness comes into her heart and tears roll down her face, she hesitates. She hesitates...

But then she steels her spine and she leaves. She walks out of the office you met in, she walks out of your life, and she pushes you from her heart and mind. She buries the pain so deeply, she forgets you and meets a new man, one who loves her but who she doesn't love back because you're the one she wants, even as she begs her heart to let go. Please, let go.

She gave you a world of chances. She gave you every opportunity. She tried to pretend you and your ex were over. She ignored how you still went to your ex whenever your ex called, despite knowing it killed her. It killed her. She tried to not feel the way she did but you never thought about her feelings. You only thought about how it was hard for you.

You are going to realize too late that she was leaving you. You're going to call her and she won't pick up. You're going to text her and you'll see she saw it but decided to not to answer, despite the fact she stared at it for hours, heart breaking all over again.

She decided to leave you.

It was so hard. It was so painful and if you think for a second she doesn't love you so much, then you're even more lost than she thought. She had to choose: her or you. She chose herself because she needed someone to choose her. She had to look out for herself because no one else did. You never did.

"She had a world of chances for you, chances you burned through."

She's going to leave you because you made it to the end of the chapter, but not to the end of the book. She'll find her prince charming and you'll be the frog waiting for a kiss that will never come.

In the end, you have no one to blame but yourself.

She left you.


Inspired by Selena Gomez's "The Heart Wants What It Wants"

Cover Image Credit: Yahoo.com

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Dear Boy I Never Dated,

You know who you are. I just want to get a couple things off my chest.

First, I want to say thank you. Thank you for being my friend, my ally, and at one point an important part of my life. Despite the fact that our relationship never went past the friend stage, I will never regret the time I spent with you or the memories we made. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, so we were meant to be in each other's lives. Sure, I could go on and say that you missed out, how I'm an awesome person and all that stuff but that wouldn't do anything. We're both awesome people. Us never being a couple could never take away from that.

Honestly, I still consider us to be friends no matter where life takes us. I'm only one text or Snapchat away.

I do want to make one thing clear: I've moved on. I don't care what you've thought in the past or what you've been told, I'm seriously over it. I've been over it, despite what you think. I'm over everything; the pointless drama, the rumors, the over-thinking, and the self-doubt. I no longer care that you weren't interested in me in "that way." Honestly, this all went down so long ago that I don't even remember everything that happened.

I've met new people, had new experiences, and grew as a person. You've even noticed that I've changed. I'm the not the same girl that pined for you all those years ago. I care about you, obviously, but I know where we stand. Neither one of us needs to deal with the what-ifs or maybe-some-days. We both deserve loving committed relationships where the person you're with is 100% invested in you and vice versa. So maybe I am a text away, but that doesn't mean I'm available anymore.

If there's one thing about people that can get you down is that we're always disappointing. Either we're disappointing other people or disappointing ourselves. It is way too easy to break your own heart. I was guilty of that I think. I got too optimistic and thought we were on some path to greatest when in reality we were just two young kids that enjoyed spending time together. When things didn't go in my favor, I probably placed the blame on you because I was upset.

It took time for me to reflect and finally accept that I wasn't perfect, either. Now, I don't think anyone was at fault. Whether it was bad timing, lack of compatibility, or maybe lack of maturity neither one of one did anything wrong. At the time, it seemed so horrible that we never even tried but when I look back it's not a big deal.

To be completely honest, I'm now glad we never dated. There is no more resentment, bitterness, or pettiness. I don't think there was any to begin with, but I apologize if there was. Our lives may be going toward separate paths, but they're both paths of greatest. I'm completely, absolutely happy with where I am in life and all I can say is that I wish the same for you. When our paths do cross again someday, I'll be more than happy to see you.

With (platonic) love,

The Girl You Never Dated


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