Since the beginning of time, I have always looked for the best in everyone and especially recently I've realized, words are deceptive, yet they are music to my ears. Words of affirmation and love fills my heart with satisfaction and purpose and I crave it so intensely, but a line needs to be drawn when the actions don’t confirm the validity of those beautiful words. After many trials and tribulations, I’ve discovered my worth and know I have to value that at all costs, and I must remind myself that just because someone doesn’t see my value or treat me as though I am enough, my worth doesn’t decrease.
I am flawed indefinitely, but I’m not my flaws, burdens, or heartbreaks. I’m not defined by someone’s inability to see my worth and I am so much more than meets the eye and only a few get to see me in my absolute essence. I think that’s what breaks us though is when we finally let our walls crumble down and we are standing bare as our true self— without fabrications, masks, or being anything other than who exactly we are— we want so terribly to be accepted and adored for all that we are and when we are not, our heart is never the same.
What more did they want from me?
Where did I go wrong?
Why wasn’t I enough?
But the reality is, I don’t have to be enough for someone else when I am enough for myself. Self-love is everything and I truly mean that. We are alone with our thoughts every second of everyday and the voice inside your head needs to be loving, uplifting, and empowering. When I am loving of myself, I will attract someone who will love me just the same and there is no rush on that. I have to value myself day in and day out, and let go of things that are making me question what I feel in my heart. I can’t be a part of anything that hurts my soul when life is too short and too beautiful to be unhappy and dissatisfied; letting go of something you wanted, but is only hurting your spirit, needs to get tossed to the curb as soon as possible because you're prolonging heart breaks and putting your self-love on the back burner and that’s just not going to suffice.
