The Art Of Loving What We Can’t Have

The Art Of Loving What We Can’t Have

We really do love to break our own hearts, don't we?

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I'll never forget the first time I looked in the mirror with fire in my lungs begging myself to stop the insanity that is loving things that don't love me. When I choose to love, I do so selflessly. I have never loved to be loved in return. I'm sure you can see where this becomes problematic…

Most of us are selfish. We don't just love selfishly, but our entire beings are riddled with selfishness. It's like a plague. Humanity by nature is so self-minded that they can't even begin to imagine the pain they are capable of causing. If we can't have something, we chose not to love it. We choose to turn our backs and be cold. We do so for selfish reasons. The fear of unrequited love, the fear of pain, the fear of transparency; they are crippling.

Did you ever think that maybe simply not being able to have something, doesn't mean it didn't love you back? Did your mother ever tell you that you can't always have everything you want? Did she lead you to believe this meant she loved you less?

I broke my own heart in two the night I had to let the caterpillar-turned-butterfly leave and be free. I watched it grow, I provided it with what it needed, but yet it still left. Five years old and I could not breathe because the pain from loving this small creature had closed off my throat in flames of knowledge I would come to discover in the future. I didn't stop loving it so I would hurt less, I loved it through the pain because everything on this earth deserves to be loved. Can you imagine what a human could do to me?

I broke my heart again when the man I loved couldn't stay. Not because he didn't want to, but because he had to, as life goes. There was no malice, there was no falling out, there was only grief. Grief for what I loved, and would still love, even when it was gone.

Loving is meant to be selfless, but loving one who does not love you back may be the most selfless thing on this earth. I went back to the mirror, fire in my lungs—this time I let the tears roll, quietly and softly down my face, onto my neck, feeling the fire just beneath the skin. I let myself feel my heartbreak. I did not scream, I did not sob, I simply felt what I felt.

I broke my own heart, but I took the pain because I would rather love what does not love me than never know love at all. What if they do love you back? My answer is simple; if you have loved, who loves you back matters little. You will always be loved in return—everyone is loved by someone. Everyone deserves this.

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Netflix broke everyone's heart and then stitched them back together within a matter of 12 hours the other day.

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For The Grandparents You Lost Before You Were Ready, Because You Never Can Be

We weren't ready and there is so much I wish I could tell you.

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You were taken far too soon. It's not fair, I didn't have you for long enough. Why do the bad things happen to the good people?

It's been nine years and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. When you left, I had to be strong for mom because she had to take care of everything. But when it was all said and done, I was curled up in the closet crying.

It's been nine years and you've missed so much. You didn't get to see me baptized, start cheerleading, graduate high school, get my first job, or have my first real boyfriend. It hurts to know you won't see me graduate college, get married, or have kids. But, I know you are watching over from Heaven. I can always feel your presence.

It scares me because Kylie was only 6 when you left us. I worry about what she remembers. I'm scared because I can barely remember your voices. But I am thankful because I remember grandpa's love for hats, grandma's love for scrabble, and a shared love of card games. I remember big Christmases, the mess of making chicken and dumplings, running down the hall away from the tickle monster, and most of all, I remember the love you showed me. Your love was overwhelming, safe, and unfaltering.

To you Grandpa and Grandma, Ray and Joy, I miss you, I love you, I hope I do you proud. I will show the love you gave me to as many people as I can. Your memory will live on through the stories we tell and you will never be forgotten.

I'll give mom a hug and kiss for you. I know you'd give us all one. Keep watching over, OK? I love you.

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