About a month ago a friend asked me what my biggest fear was. I sat there for a second, contemplating telling him some lame lie like heights or spiders. Instead, I told him the truth; my biggest fear is and always has been being alone and never being loved. Sounds dramatic right, and maybe a bit cliche?
I'm a girl with divorced parents since the age of five. It gets fuzzy sometimes because I say I don't need someone, but that doesn't mean that I don't want someone. Someone to understand why I pick my lips when I'm anxious, someone who loves every single part of my body even if I may not be able to. That's not too hard to ask for right?
Loving a girl with divorced parents is hard. I wont' say that it's easy, but I will say that it's worth it.
We need reassurance. Something yet so simple, but for some unnecessary. Reassurance has been something I've needed my entire life, needing to know that we are still okay, you are still okay, and most importantly that you're not going to get up and leave in the morning. We know we are loved; we just need to be reminded.
Trust is huge. Things change quicker than lightning. We've seen it. Be patient with us, we will learn to trust, it just takes longer than usual.
We always go to the worst conclusion. I hate this one, because every time something goes wrong, I always think the worst. It's all we have known. Prove us wrong, and we will love you.
We still believe in the best in people. Something that completely baffles to me to this day. I always want to believe the good in people. That not every person will lie and cheat. That somewhere out there, there is someone who will prove me wrong.
We are BIG hopeless romantics. You'd think we wouldn't be but our hope for true love has stained our hearts. Our deepest wish is that we will find it someday.
We commit to people one hundred percent. I know that may sound scary but it's for everyone in our lives, not just love. We always give relationships our all.
We will be there through anything. We've been through hell and back. We will always be there to take good care of you. We can handle almost anything, and if you are going through a hard time we will be by your side through it all.
We love hard. Also can be scary for people sometimes, but love is not a joke to us and we for sure as hell don't take it for granted. We know that perfection isn't real, that all relationships have their flaws but we also know that fighting for each other is worth it. It's always worth it.
We forgive easily. Something I wish I could change too. But there was always a time growing up when we thought our own parents would just apologize and move on, so we are more lenient when necessary. We want to forgive.
