Lover,
Our nights have never ended,
You’re entertaining and sedating.
Clearly, I remember the first time I saw you.
Uncovered, and far more unabashed than I,
Challenged me to confront myself while you watched,
And I did.
You filled my mouth with smoke and air, and put fingerprints on me,
You understood more than you were ever supposed to
But I didn’t mind it.
You read my heart as if it were a book, a magazine
All kinds of disturbing journal entries,
And love letters that were written for you.
Lover,
If it’s the last thing I ever do,
You’ll start to see yourself the way I see you.
We are not too old yet to forgive wasted time,
I’ll give you options if you want them,
To re-live and relieve whatever it was that caused you pain,
Turned your loving brain into a muddy puddle,
So eat your cigarettes, drink your coffee,
Just save some room for me in your life.
Lover,
You’re not what you think you are,
You’re actually very beautiful.
Don’t apologize to me,
If you don’t know how to exchange important words,
And don’t thank me,
For loving you like nobody else ever has.
You think you need me,
But you’d be surprised to find that I’m just your desire,
And you’re my necessity.
Yes, you are indispensable to me,
Cannot ever be replaced.
Lover,
Knowing you is learning how to love,
You teach me something new every minute of every day,
I see you when I close my eyes, even when you’re fast asleep mere inches from my face.
And like all things,
This will take time and practice to complete.
Some things which we’ve already mastered,
Like speaking our own language,
And letting everything else in the world leave the two of us apart.
Lover,
What say you?
Identify yourself.
Or, does it make you unidentifiable?
Your name,
I can taste it every time I spit it out of my mouth,
Which is never frequent enough,
Because the letter "T" is especially beguiling to me.
Lover,
Not all things will be the same forever,
But some will.
My devotion to you will never set like the sun does,
My care for you will never fade like words written in the sand that are erased by ocean waves,
In my heart, beneath my rib cage,
That's where you are; and you’re safe there.
Safe to say, safe to be.
You want me to love you,
Although you’ve never even had to ask.
I simply do.
I always do.
