To My Loved One In Heaven As I Graduate From College

With finals coming to an end, it means you've made it successfully through the semester.

Congratulations!

For seniors, it means that graduation is right around the corner. That signifies ending this chapter of your life that was filled with many memories and beginning something very unknown. Graduating college brings all types of emotions starting from being excited to being scared. But it also brings up painful memories and knowing that those certain loved ones won't be able to be there.

To my loved one in heaven, I wish you were here still. I miss you more than words could ever describe. Every single day of every single moment it hurts without you here with me. Sometimes it's almost consuming how sad and broken my heart feels missing you. There have been so many times that I wished you would just walk in the front door or call me to simply ask how I am.

As this bittersweet chapter of my life comes to a close, the only thing monopolizing my thoughts is knowing that you aren't going to be there to hug me and say congratulations as I receive my college diploma. It absolutely kills me inside knowing that no matter how much I cry and plea, you aren't coming back. The worst part is that there's nothing I can do to change that.

In just a few weeks, I'll be walking across the stage and soon after officially be a college graduate. This is one of the biggest, most important accomplishments in my life. Yeah, graduating middle school and high school were major, but nothing compares to this. I've been through so many exams, homework assignments, and a lot of tears to get here and I deserve to be happy and proud of myself.

Instead of thinking how sad and awful it is without you there, I think of all the happiness this brings to me and all the people that have been there for me.

There's nothing I wouldn't do to have you there at the end of this journey. But I know in my heart, you've been there every single step. I also know how proud you are of me for everything I've accomplished. I know that you've truly been my guardian angel and made sure I got to this point. You also left me in great hands because I am loved incredibly by my family and my friends. From my incredible father and my step mom, to my two best friends and my boyfriend and finally to all the people I call my friends and family, I am so blessed.

Graduating college isn't just for me, it's for them and it's for you.

I love you so much.

PS: Please make sure I don't trip or lose my cap at graduation.