I've fallen for you...and I can't get up

You know me, I absolutely love talking. Getting me to stop is the hardest part. There's so much I have to say to you, but I can't bring myself to say anything. It scares me, the thought that you might not reciprocate my feelings, that you may very well have no feelings at all.

Psychology states that being unable to get someone off of your mind indicates you're on that person's mind as well. Do you think about me as much as I think about you? Does your mind drift to the thought of us together, watching your favorite movie, or sitting on the soft sand at the beach, with my head on your shoulder?

When I see your name light up my phone, my stomach jumps with excitement. Your snapchats make me smile in a way I've never smiled before, and I never get tired of texting you. Just hearing how your day was or even about the random act of stupidity you and your friends committed is thrilling. I don't have to pretend to be interested because I actually am. Suddenly things I never would have thought twice about occupied my mind. Your passion for what you love rubbed off on me as fast as the way you speak. I went from not being able to understand half of the words you use to being fluent in almost all of them.

I'm falling for every part of you, from the way your hair feels when I run my fingers through it, to the way you value your family and friends. The smallest things you do are enough to make me swoon. I love when you put your head on my chest when we're relaxing in bed. When you make me angry, and then wrap me up in your arms when I try to move away from you, I get little chills up my spine.

You're the male version of me. When I'm with you I'm completely myself and don't have to pretend to be anyone else. My walls came down for you faster than I thought. I didn't think I'd fall so hard so fast. I met you for a reason, because there are too many similarities between us for it to be a mere coincidence.

I'm really needy. I want cuddles, kisses, and late night conversations. I want you to want me and only me. I want to put all my trust in you. You don't know about my past. I've been broken by those that came before you, so trust does not come easily.

I know the signs of when something is coming to an end. I get scared when I don't get a text back, because it's highly likely I'll never get one back, ever again. When we don't get to hang out for a while, I get even more nervous. What did I do wrong? Half the time I'm afraid to text you because I feel annoying. Yet, you text me back. As late as it is and after four of my worried/crazy texts later, you still do. I know you're busy with friends, and especially now with finals, but it's so hard to not have you to talk to. When we hang out, all of my worries melt away, as if they were never there. Why do I get so anxious over someone who isn't even mine?

Psychology states that a crush lasts four months, but when feelings last longer, it means you're in love. I don't know what it's like to be in love, but I want to learn what it's like with you. Let me fall in love with you slowly and surely. What am I supposed to do a state away from you over the summer? Distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it will ache every day I don't see you.

One day I am going to muster up the courage to tell you how I feel. That day could be tonight, tomorrow, or months from now. When that day comes, I hope you pick me. Choose me. Love me.